I woke up not feeling as horrible as the past couple of day. My wife curled up with me for a while before we finally got up and I cooked her breakfast, I love cooking for her. I decided to finally try to face re-editing part of a novel that has been bothering me and finished re-reading 20 chapters over the past 5 hours, why does it always take me longer to read my own works and yet I devour others books? I'm trying to get these bad thoughts out of my head and get back to work on the stories I like to write, meanwhile my wife is packing up the house as we prepare to move, but we are not moving until october and all these boxes are making me anxious. Now that we've had dinner I'm going to try to face the last part of this book before spending sometime with my love.

jaa ne

Kat

****May Trigger****

I feel like Fred Flinstone ranting over a bad day at work. anyway, here goes. People were banging around on my road as they did housework as I try to get dressed + get breakfast. Then some driver gets in the fast lane + goes 3 miles per hour slower than I need to drive. Pass a car wreck, the car looked like king kong took 2 bites out of it. Man.

Went to my therapist, and we had a good talk about family + politics and such. went to drive to lunch. I hate to see small wild animals about to meet the grim reaper. I saw a raven pounding on a garter snake. poor snake. I felt like helping the snake, but then BOTH animals would probably bite me. Joy. Man.

Didn't sleep well last night. I had the day off. went to a library to relax. It was ok, except for a mother had a "never hears the word no" 4 year old boy yelling all the time at one side of a DON'T MAKE LOTS OF NOISE-please be quiet in the library-type library.

I went home. I get horrid allergies to pollen during the summer, + my parents have opened up all the windows + let all the pollen in. Great, my lungs get to feel like I'm in a hard-to-breathe fog all day. Pitiful sounding yay. I wrote my friend an email yesterday, saying I was really grateful for her help. does she write me back at all? maybe to see how I am doing after a really stressful day? no. such is life.

Tried to watch tv-all the tv shows are written.....probably by that noisy imp of a 4 year old creep I met today. Yay, yay.
Oh well, I had some cokes or something so things are improving.

Thank you for the chance to rant today, I feel really good about me....well, hey, that's something to celebrate, what do you know. :cool: :cool: .

Usually a bad day makes me feel bad about me. I had a bad day, but I feel up about me anyhow. I must be improving how I feel about me. Cool!!

Have a Good Day,

Rob

I not with it today that is for sure. I feel dizzy and don't feel like talking to anyone or going anywhere. I keep waiting for those brat's to egg my house or attempt my truck again. Hope I get more sleep tonight because I am just not feeling well over that little stunt today.

bec

Ugh, Bec, I hope tonight goes smoothly for you.

I rode around the town's trails on my bike this afternoon. I was always too scared to do it on foot, but I didn't even get anxious on my bike!

Well I had a better day today. I've had some sleep and got some errands and an appointment (that I was avoiding) finished up. I'm still feeling a little pissy concerning a few subjects but I just have to "let it go." LOL

Decided I am going to try some Taco Time tonight. Not sure yet if I will go inside and eat or we will just get some take out. Other than that, quiet night for us.

bec

Ok....Well I was a few minutes late for work. I was gabbing on the phone. It's way to humid here. I can't breath when it gets like this.

Had an ok day sort of.... One of my customers called, left me a message to fired me. Apparently her tennant had an arguement with her, and dragged me into the fight, and said things to her that I didn't even say......I think blood was shooting out of my eyes when I heard this message. Anyway, I called her back, and we talked. I talked to her tennant( I wanted to reach through the phone and SLAP him), I was polite, and just said that the next time you have a fight with her, please keep me out of it. I was re-hired....

Had a knock down drag out :boxing: fight with the vacuum cleaner today. I won!!!!! So all things are ok....

Just rambling......Hope everyone else had a better day....

Wendy

Not too bad of a day, not too terrific of a day either. This morning and then, since early evening though all has been fairly good. Had a few good laughs and worked tonight. The hi-light of the day was playing Twister' with my husb. and kids!

Have been missing you'all on the forum!

These days/nights are like One Big, ('within reason'), Rollercoaster Ride.

Hope

I guess I must try and get some sleep. Sometimes I don't even like to try, especially in a bedroom, I prefer the livingroom on scary nights.

Well, tommorrow's our last day to pack and then my family and I will be off on a camping vacation. I'm also very glad that two of our relatives will be visiting and living here while we are gone and others will be stopping by. My kids are so much looking forward to this camping trip. I certainly hope all goes well, as my husband IMHO, has not been very happy lately and there is no greater trigger in my life these days, then when my husb. is unmotivated, negative, fearful, resentful or super-sensitive. I'm afraid I'm not suppose to tell my perception of the truth here, on that subject. Wtf though, it sucks having to struggle to find and act upon my best thinking, while feeling I must do everyone else's best thinking for them too. I mean, I'm supposedly the only one with issues here, when I can and have consistently seen issues within my husb., who if you ask him will tell you they don't exist and are all within my imagination. Crap'o'la........Just fed up tonight with bs. I mean my kids see, feel and respond or react to it also. They feel like they're walking on egg shells too during his frequent agitated and super-sensitive moods.

Well whatever', ........I do plan to prepare myself to use one strategy after another if I must to avoid any conflict while camping. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband, and our kids adore him, we just need him to really take his part in HIS emotional/mental and physical well-being seriously enough to reach out for help.

Today has been an "ok" day. I stayed home with the kids today while my wife did the errands. I had my neighbor over for about an hour, just talkin. He was deployed to one of our sister battalions in Iraq and has been diagnosed w/ PTSD as well. We chatted about missions, bad days we had over there.. and etc. Just trying to relax a little bit now that the boys are in bed. I dread going to sleep tonight though, the nightmares just drain me.

Hey, Riger, just wanted to say I think it's good that you have someone else nearby to talk to who's been through the same kind of thing. I have nightmares, too, and they are draining. I've been told that as we work through our traumas and resolve them, they'll simmer down. It's not a short-term solution, I know, but at least it's something to look forward to, right?

Hope you have another at least "ok" day tomorrow.