I am exhausted out of my wits....Have had a respiratory infection for almost a week now....Each day I seem to be getting physically weaker....AND....this afternoon I will be seeing a surgeon to see about removing a lump on my back...I have been told over and over that it's a fatty tumor but now it's growing so my med doc wants to have it out I think that I'm just too tired to care right now...SEEKING THE PEACE

Sorry to hear what you're going through and i'm thinking right now maybe sometimes i do have what others say ,unrealistic expectations of myself ,its hard to know what to compare things with when you don't really know people having similar experiences and what i think keeps changing.I'm wanting to move house to somewhere with a smaller garden i am unable to cope with garden and it gets done for me,probably going to stay in the same village.
yes i think its fcked up ,and confusing.:-)

still sucking here...

Sorry, Veiled. Still sucking here, too. Blah.

Did manage to have a nice night with my husband, though.

I'm hoping for better times for you, dear.

Very sad last night and tonight. I'm very depressed. Don't even want to do anything but sleep. Everything just sucks. Hope everyone else is doing better than I currently.

bec

Hoping for better times for all of us,glad for times when think straighter function and communicate better with those around .

Wish me luck. Driving out of town (riding) back to Texas. I have had icy hot, which I need to shower off now as I smell like grandpa... Advil, Anicin, Xanax, and a beer. Mad I cannot find tums for heart burn. Breakfast of champs. We hope it will keep me off the ceiling of the car. I have been covered in hives and they angry red polka dots of blood vessels bursting under extreme stress.

We were to leave two hours ago but everyone piled on me in bed ands everyone smelled like icy hot (menthol) so well... showers all around though we all did last night to avoid this AM rounds.

Paranoid as sis has not seen me big yet. And I get to go see the old me, literally. We are identical twins and she is still little. So hope not too big a knock to self esteem.

hugs tight veiled

Well, burnt my arm on the iron at work last night, got a lecture from one of the RN's cos she /knows/ what the scars were.

Gaarghs. I laughed at her. TYold her she didn't know me and had no right to tell me why I do things.

Other RN saved her before I gave into my desire to shake her.

Burn is about the length of my top finger nuckle and the width of the thickness of my finger. Doesn't actually hurt, which isn't a good thing.

Oh, the burn wasn't intentional, btw. I knocked the iron then stupidly tried catching it.

Been real down lately. Only want to sleep, can't stay asleep, wake up with a start. :hugs:

Dammit, I wish I had some way to calm down. Is so hard to sleep when L isn't there. He started his new job, means we see each other more often however it also means I sleep alone at night. Is hard to sleep when I keep checking doors and windown. Also keep feeling hands touching me. I know now why I need a heavy blanket to sleep caccooned in in the middle of summer. Hot as hell but safe.

Hope it gets better soon. I burned my self on a log the other day and accidentally slid part of the skin off digging in my purse. Grossed bec out on line and she laughed as I squished it back on in place. Looks sorta OK and the skin stayed put LOL. Funny thing it really does not hurt either.

But the bruise on the arch of my foot will probably smart from the baby block. I have been unable to wear shoes yet but I am having to wear my boots this weekend! Talk about pressure on the foot. LOL, being whiny.

I am still stalling leaving, IBS decided to kick in, go figure so I am a bit stuck at home until I run out! OK too much info but joys of anxiety. Lord, I have to put on my make up now... Pttthhh

*snugs* heres hoping your *erm* undercarriage parts start behavin ;)

Heh my burn hasn't even raised to a blister, its just flat white and numb to touch.