You got it good. Mine did not really even change color until now and it is my finger across the whole middle finger. No blister so I thought singed hair... No biggie. Not numb though! Just no pain and surprised myself when the skin tried to slide off. Now it just looks like a cut where the edges are and is an ugly purple red. Not very pretty but oh well. Hubs wanted me to bandage until he forgot our toddler has a major affection for all bandages for every sort of boo boo so we are out.

Yes, praying the undercarriage behaves! 6 hour drive it best!

*hugs8 panic attacks out the wazoo today. Dragged my as sto work, ended up getting sent home two hours later.

Dammit, I now have had a formal report put in and I have to talk to the Nursing manager. She's a lovely lady but at the moment I can't think the words to put them into sentances.

Think I scared the RN on duty thoiugh, he was close to calling an ambulance and sending me to the ER.

Dammit I hate this, I hatre not being able to get through a shift at work I hate calling in sick. . . . .

I just want it all to stop.

its been quite boring, got work, sit infront of a computer laptop all day...really dodgy and boring job...no one talks to you...sad sad job

Sick today...sore throat, runny nose, ear ache...ugh.

*hugs* bit better today. Was an RDO :) actually got some house work done (well, dishes and rat cage.)

My burn is starting to get a bit tender, the white is having red bits come through :ick: It's healing though, and isn't hot so it isn't infected.

Had a chat with my mum, she is finally accepting that I have 'issues' as she likes to call them and understands that it was my brothers that caused it.

It actually made me feel better for me to hear it. I mean, it was a little bit of stress taken away that made me feel like I had one less thing to fight against.

Glad to hear it is healing up for you!

I got through the shift :D

Which isn't to say I wasn't nervous, wasn't jumpy but I got through. I was some where between heart pounding dry mouth and sweats, but I got through :)

Nothing to seriously complain about today. A good day.

I will note though that one of my biggest frustrations days, even good ones, is that there is never, ever, enough time to accomplish all that I wish I could.

Not at all uncommon for life, only I still wish that I could free up more time, by dropping any further thought, painful rememberance, illness and symptoms entirely from my days so that I could move in other directions too, accomplish more goals and dreams, and be the Wife and Mommy, that I've placed my expectations at.

So, even on good days, there is this dissatisfying ache both in my heart and stomach that too frequently harrasses and signals me to know: I haven't done enough yet.

Naturally, this thought: 'I STILL HAVEN'T DONE ENOUGH YET', only perpetuates added stress in mine and my families lives. And, sometimes it's this damning thought: 'I'm not good enough, well enough, fit enough ......whatever enough...... yet. I MUST BE, MORE... DO, MORE... KNOW, MORE... SEE, MORE... ect., ect. ect., than I do, bc until I do I'M NOT ENOUGH!

Though I can see just in writing this my faulty thinking here; It's like deeply embedded in my psyche', and shoves and pushes me around days, wks. and mo.'s and even on good days. Some days are better than others, but I'm a pain in my ass with this typical thinking and believing of Mine. It goes as far as, feeling as if I'm being whipped ....... Quicker,...Faster,...More,...Better,...STILL NOT ENOUGH. Ouch!

Frustrating!

My day has been honestly a bunch of shit.
I feel like crap and I am lonely....broke....and lost.

blah

The past few days have been a bit tougher lately. I'm tempted to go back on Wellbutrin to get me through. I'm trying hard not to go back since it's been three months since being off of it. Truly, I'm not horrible right now. I'm just going through some depression that is making me sleep a whole lot. Then, in turn, I don't get much done and beat myself up on not being the mom/housewife I should be. Things are starting to overwhelm me a bit too, financially, since Leo's 10 day stay at the hospital was like 40K and our insurance is being jacka$$es about it and well, Christmas is coming....aaaargggh! It's supposed to be happy!! Where's my HAPPY?