What do you think a mom/housewife should be? Are you putting unreasonable demands on yourself? Are the kids' tummies full and them clean? If so you are done :) A new little one makes even the super moms stressed, tired, and not so super mommy. Don't forget that. Dinners may not be cooked, laundry could probably use washing, toys need picking up... All normal with the new little ones, especially if you have PTSD. Hee hee my baby is about to be 4 in a couple weeks and it is still like that around here. It is hard for me to swallow some days but I am getting better at it. I used to be super mom almost 10 years ago, it just ain't happening now!

Insurance and medical bills; remember do your best to understand and accept what you can control and not control. Oh, it is hard no doubt.

The thing that is the neat thing about kids, Christmas can still be done as they do not look at price tags and they want one of everything. You can get the cheap stuff, they will still be happy. I do not buy for adults as to me this is really for the kids so I do not have that extra headache. I think we are going to try to find something for inlaws this year as were taking off guard last year being so close to them they loaded us down in gifts... I don't want to but don't want to feel like a heel again either. I won't be doing the shopping though.

Who says Christmas is happy LOL? I am always happy it is over, it is like great I can resume life again! Life is not what is on the outside of a hallmark card portrays. Christmas is crunching numbers, juggling bills, staying up too late trying to make sure the kids think it was Santa and not you who ate the cookies... And hopefully the kids know what the true meaning behind Christmas some where along the way.

What ever you decide good luck with it and I hope you feel better soon. But I think it would be pretty normal with what you have going right now to want to stay in bed, at least until the holidays are over ;)

My day is OK. This evening is proving a little harder. Dealing with panic attacks is a major pain in the ass. My heart decided to give me a little extra with the palpitations. Felt like it just backfired, like it was trying to go through a beat and it tried to add an extra. Instead of fluttery it felt like it tried to flip over and took my breath away. I keep telling myself I am not having a heart attack or I would not be typing, eventually I will believe it.

Most excellent day! Rocky start but no anxiety or stress this evening, in a great mood. I think chat made me happy :)

My young daughter says, hi and this forum is cool, bc you get to have messages go to other people's computers and it pops up.

..., Have Fun, she says.

ps. My day's going reasonably well, and I've just now tried to attach a little artwork gift she want's to give. Hope it attaches properly and shows up. She's helped me notice and point out little meanings and messages in each of her little drawings, so again I hope it displays.

Hope

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I'm exhausted, sore and cranky. Matt started shoveling at 11:30 am, I started around noon, my neighbor helped, another neighbor helped. We stopped for supper. Went back out and did another half hour. Finally done with some six foot snowbanks. It had better not snow tonight or tomorrow! I'm too tired for any more right now! Schools are shut down (and they don't shut down by the way...) city buses are shut down etc.. They are having to close streets to plow and remove because there is so much that we are out of room already! Now I'm used to snow.. but this is ridiculous! ARRRRRRGGGG...

I need to go soak in the tub....

bec

Bec, Wow, 6ft. snowbanks, I think my children would love to move up North where you're. We got the teeniest, tiniest amount of snow, though it's freezing out with ice and all, where's our snow? My children want it so.

Sounds like you got both a work-out and a soak in the tub, and some snow. I'm minimizing the some snow, huh? Anyhow, perhaps it has slowed down or stopped now and is not just adding. Has it?

If I were you bec, I'd force myself to soak in the tub DAILY, and perhaps with some music or a self-recording of pers. postivie affirmations or something, and all for an accumulative effect and prep, for anymore snow yet to come.

Hang in there bec, and yet, If it's at all possible please do take it easy while doing so.

Hope

ps. bec, I do apoligize, if this annoys you, for my 'snow comparison' and the tiniest amount of teasing here, I'm simply hoping you'll get a giggle or two.

Truly though, no sh't, even though I'd be far from thrilled, rather worn-out, irritable and perhaps even pissed off depending, My kids would simply be in esctasy.

Haha, I don't mind at all Hope. I still haven't had a chance to have a bath yet! I'm still too sore to extend my arms *grumbles* But yes, Matt is thrilled. He's been digging tunnels and playing outside and Cougie has been bouncing and swimming through it. Thankfully it has not snowed yet again. I'm hoping this will drag out for another week! hehe

bec

Today I am grateful that I am having more good days than bad days. The bad days are not as bad. In recent weeks, I have been able to see a dim light at the end of this dark tunnel. At least I hope so.
Recently I had a patient's wife comment on how we see the worst of the worst in the ER. Surprisingly, I told her we also get a chance to see the best of the best as well. I do see the worst and best of humanity in my patients, their families, my co-workers, and myself. This past year I haven't been able to see or feel anything beyond the worst. I am starting to catch a glimpse of the better parts of my own humanity, i.e. strength in weakness, my own bravery. It has been encouraging and motivating.

Take care of you and have a good day everyone.

Hectic - psychiatrist ordered 5 blood tests. Had to fast before I took them, so no eating or drinking from dinner last night until after the test this morning. I made it though! Now I just wait to see what they all say I guess. Now, time to write my last two papers of my second master's degree. Tomorrow is my last class!

I hate summer. Really. When my mind is still enough for me to sleep, the heat is doing its damndest to keep me awake.

My sis left to live in melbourne on monday, still am not letting myself even think about it, not really. It just hurts, makes me want to curl up in a ball and not go anywhere.

Onbe of the RNs at work is giving me the creeps, keeps giving me a hug. I mean, wtf. Yes you saw me break down, panic till I couldn't breath and just about passed out but dont ever ****ing tuch me. I hate being touched. I just, and he *GRRRRS*

I dont know if it is me being paranoid and over reacting. *tantrum*

I just *FGRRRRR*