How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, so Make Your Mark Daily - Page 208

goingonhope · #**2071** 03-08-2008, 03:54 PM

Hey Jet, would you mind if I copied that paragraph your wrote to me with your advice to not let people get me down and the wisdom shared? I'd like to copy and paste it (quoted) right into my diary with the heading Remider.

I find it very helpful and supportive and think that I may always need such truth and reminding of this. Thank you!

I got truly brainwashed, over the yrs., let's say by many people playing God and with some monstorous ego's and substantial fear. There once was a time that I felt guilty as sin and made to feel so different for taking prescribed Dilantin and Tegrotal for seizures that I was having that I didn't take it properly, just refused doses and also dropped it, and paid with a hefty price.

So Jet, could I? copy, paste you know?

Hope

Seychelle · #**2072** 03-08-2008, 07:53 PM

Sobbing because I'm trying to write out a new memory. It's a rape memory from when I was little. I don't want to be 'damaged goods'. I keep hearing people use that phrase to describe females who were sexually abused. I don't know why but I can't stop crying about it. Stupid, I know.

Jet · #**2073** 04-08-2008, 08:55 PM

Ok, so it is 0151 and my day is pretty much just beginning...the graveyard thing ya know. So far it is miserable. Not sure why but I feel awful. Really light headed. Not really sick...just icky. Hoping it is just a sleep thing and I am not coming down with something (a lot of co-workers have been sick the last week or so and I would rather not catch anything). But other than feeling awful life is good.

And yes Hope, copy and paste to your hearts content.

Have a great night everyone!

GR-ass · #**2074** 09-08-2008, 03:01 AM

0100 and I still can't sleep. Just *meh* stressed from work, yet another care manager left- means we get to go through the stress of up in the air rosters again as well as a new care manager.

On top of this, the lease on our house has a month left and me and L are going to move- if we can get approved for a place. Hopefully something that is less then 240 a week- we just can't afford to eat if I have a symptomatic week and end up off of w**k.

*sigh* fun. I hate moving.

GR-ass · #**2075** 09-08-2008, 03:04 AM

Saychelle- we are not damaged goods. We are survivors. Don't let anyone tell you differently.
We may have been hurt, abused, raped and at one point broken, but we are not damaged. We are individual unique artworks. So what if we are a little rough around the edges, or react to things differently. So what if we seem to other slightly off kilter. We have been through the kiln and we have not been destroyed.
*hugs*
I know what you mean though. I hate being referred to as damaged goods as well.

goingonhope · #**2076** 11-08-2008, 04:17 PM

Today was alright until it felt like deadly. Because just as I was doing well and doing my very best here at home with the kids, (while recovering from the day before yesterday's abuse) and a fairly good job too I might add. Someone saw too it that I should suffer. And, this is no f'n paranoia, bullsh't, exageration, pity-party or anything else but the truth. I think it sucks when I do as much as I do and as well as I do things and it's not ever right or good enough. It's like ironic, it's no doubt every time I've just wrapped up doing well and accomplishing much and slam, ........I'm suppose to believe I suck.

I'm feeling the anger tonight, but it's been nothing but grief, deep sadness, feeling trapped, frustrated and sobbing throughout it all.

And, I feel like a jack'ass telling anyone else, especially the world wide web how I truly feel.

Seychelle · #**2077** 12-08-2008, 10:27 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by GR-ass

Saychelle- we are not damaged goods. We are survivors. Don't let anyone tell you differently.
We may have been hurt, abused, raped and at one point broken, but we are not damaged. We are individual unique artworks. So what if we are a little rough around the edges, or react to things differently. So what if we seem to other slightly off kilter. We have been through the kiln and we have not been destroyed.
*hugs*
I know what you mean though. I hate being referred to as damaged goods as well.

I only just saw this. Thank you. I'm too dissociated to write anything sensible in response.

goingonhope · #**2078** 21-08-2008, 03:07 PM

An extremely full day today. Kids each have a friend over and are now sleeping in tents tonight. Pizza for supper, and the fun activities for them tonight are about through, and I'm ready to collapse outside on the ground in a 1 person tent. Can't wait!

trial'n'error · #**2079** 21-08-2008, 04:21 PM

Todays been crappy. In fact even though I know it'll ultimately be a good thing (I hope) the fact that I have finally remembered (and, most importantly, realized) I was abused as a kid seems to be pretty much the worst right now. Another family blow-up, I guess exacerbated by my barely contained rage. When will I get better?

rallynut78 · #**2080** 21-08-2008, 05:56 PM

So my dog had a seizure today. we've never witnessed one before but in retrospect we think he mav have been having them over the past month. I believe it was a grand mall he was stiff and it lasted 2 to 2.5 minutes but time slows down during that kind of stuff.

this is not the fires seizure I have seen. I have worked with many clients who would have an attack once in a while and some who wore a bike helmet because there were multiple events daily. so it's old hat.

today being unexpected and on a loved it was difficult to cope. I'm up when I should be in bed because I cant sleep. this sucks.

possible causes are decreased liver function, early onset epilepsy ( I cues thats common in older dogs) and last but not least a brain tumor. we were thinking it all day that our gut told us tumor it wasn't until later on tonight that we realized the other had the same gut feeling.

so any way this sucks. tack that on to the stress board