Good going Nam, well done.

Purdy and Piglet... here is something for you. Why don't you two both exchange phone numbers privately, give each other a call, and get chatting. You are both in England, both single, both have PTSD, both female, both need good company who understands... what more do you want?

Now, I know you poms whinge about distance across your piss farting small country which you all seem to think is huge, but when a country only takes a few hours to drive from one side to the other, nobody is really being put out, considering Australia takes a good week to drive from top to bottom, or east to west. So, why not get chatting on the phone, hookup a weekend meet sometime, and get to know each other personally for some local support?

I chat with people in Australia all the time, most of which have PTSD, some of which are from this forum. It helps us all... and if your not doing it already, then I would suggest that most people here contact others within their country, and chat on the phone, even organise to meet at some stage, so you put a name to the face. It feels really good to chat with another who understands on the phone, hear their voice, hear emotions, pitch, etc etc... it helps.

Purdyamos,
Don't let that pang of "regret" over your venting bother you.
In a "normal" forum, with "normal" people... some may have been suprised to read that.
But here, you've probally shared the feelings of at least one other person that just hangs around the forum.

And being honest about how you are feeling is the best thing you can do for yourself!
I don't want you to "overthink" each post,
just get your thoughts out of your head...

When I first joined this forum... although I did have my partner...
I had never felt so alone.
Even though he could see what I was going through,
he had absolutly no idea what to do for me.
I was pushing him away, hell, I hadn't talked to my family in over 1 year.

Even now, I don't have any people I could call a friend.
I just can't act "normal" or relax enough in a social setting,
Unless someone else starts a conversation... I will walk past people I know...

After my "accident" my whole group of friends felt like they had to take sides...
unfortunatly I just pushed everyone away...
so they obviously weren't gonna take my side.

Honestly, through the worst of it... my dog was my lifeline.
He was the only one I trusted with my secrets.
Thank goodness I found this forum!!!

Heck, my social skills are so screwed up... I choose to moderate and research "interpersonal skills".


My day? Well, I've got so much crap going on here that I'm just taking it moment by moment.

Got my hair cut yesterday in preparation for my parent's big anniversery party tonight.
I went from hair almost touching my a$$, to just barely below my shoulders.
(mom requested that I do something before the event)
I think it's the second time since my accident that I've been to the hairdressers.

Both times have been because someone brought or asked me to go there. :(
Otherwise I am happy to just forget about taking care of myself.
In my mind... I have much larger issues than the length of my hair... lol
(like the reconstructive sugery coming up...eeeek! Monday! I meet with the surgeon again!)

Sincerly,
YoungAndAngry

p.s. - Nam, that is so awesome!!!

Just finished reading Anthony's post above mine
(we were posting at the same time, so I didn't see his yet)

I agree about meeting someone with PTSD if possible.
I don't think I've seen any other Canadians on here
(if you're on here, and I'm wrong, so sorry!!!)

But if there was a PTSD support meet close to home
(AKA: 5 hours or less from my city)
I'd be up for it.

BTW... if that's true, England is tiny!!
In a couple hours you might... might make it through 1 province up here, lol.
I think it takes 10 full days of driving (day AND night) to make it across from one end of the country to ther other?

I am still out of sorts really... my mind certainly isn't capable to focus too much, hence why posts are short and all over the shop at the moment. This flu is still very much playing with me, and just trying to rest and get past it, hopefully this second time.

My day started off great, we were going canoeing and whiile patching the boat, started bickering, I blew up and decided to go haywire.
I was screaming and yelling at my hub like he had called me the worst name in the world. Totally out of control!

Needless to say, no canoe trip. The river is so low we would have been carrying the canoe throuh half of it, but still it would have been fun.

Now my hub is holed up in our room and I feel like a heel for being so crazy and ruining the day.

I am not going to have a pitty party, I am going to do my best to make the rest of today better.

Hey, I forgot, my best friend of all time and I have been emailing each other after about 8 years of loosing touch. I have been sharing with her what I have been dealing with lately, as she was the first person I told about my brother. It turns out SHE has PTSD. Along with you guys she has been a big support and is really encouraging me to find a therapist. I just can't believe how I am being blessed with people who understand.
Thanks guys!

That is way awesome Anna! Isn't it like a dumbstruck feeling when something like that happens? Once again, WE ARE NOT ALONE.

Hub and I are going to the movies without the rugrats. I'm going to my hometown movie theater which is really old and historic. Can you believe that a an adult ticket is only $2.00!!! That is unheard of.....

Superman Returns!

I so wanted to see that at the cinema Nam... but yer, finding the time without the bub... that is interesting, as we have no family support where we are currently. That will change though at the end of next year.

Great stuff Anna. That is wonderful news, and no doubt has raised you up a little also, which is all win win.

Feeling a bit better today... my brain is starting to function again.

Well, didn't see the movie. The theater was not the image I had in my mind. Weird how everything is smaller when you return.... Anyway, I guess my hub and I are movie snobs, cause we couldn't stand the fact that the movie was out of focus, they didn't turn the house lights off, no surround sound, and the seats were making my bum sore before the previews were over. Only four dollars lost! We are admist putting a home theater in our basement, and for sure it will have at least those four things taken care of! Besides privacy! That, for sure is the best part.

I hope this message finds all of you well. Take care you guys...before the week starts all over again....

I just finished saying about a series of events...modem went out just before I hit post button...in such a state of shock..numbness...seem to be disconnected from my b ody...too much for me to put all that typing over...I will keep reading posts...to see signs of hope and support...soo much GRIEF...Will try to post at another time as soon as I can...needed so much to tell of the trauma...me.........