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| | Notices | Welcome to PTSD Forum. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is a life threatening, debilitating disorder that can break down a sufferer’s body through anxiety and stress. Further it poses a significant suicide risk resulting from the brains neurological imbalance and chemical depression. Sufferers often live in denial, thus this community is aimed at helping PTSD sufferers help themselves through others experiences, guidance and education. We are here for the sufferer, spouse and families surrounding PTSD. Spouses and family are too often forgotten in this equation, and often they receive all the worst that PTSD has to offer. If you're involved in any way with PTSD, get registered and help yourself now. Non-active members will eventually be deleted. If you are not a sufferer, carer or someone within the mental health industry, and active, then there is little reason for you to be a member of this forum. Non-active members with zero posts are deleted periodically during the year. |  | | 
31-07-2006, 04:25 PM
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Hi, I'm trying to figure things out here..i'm a bit lost in general..lol..I haven't been on taught with anybody in a long time |
31-07-2006, 04:27 PM
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Life always throws challenges our way Monica, but for every negative, you can always find a positive, if not two, just to keep your head above water.
You just found a place where people know what you feel, understand what your saying, and have often walked / walking the same path as you are now in relation to symptoms.
You just found a whole bunch of people who know what your talking about, experiencing, and suffering. Welcome. |
31-07-2006, 04:39 PM
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Originally Posted by purdyamos I've been desperately trying to pretend to be human, haven't been posting much. I'm on a huge internet forum in my home city, trying to act like a normal person but most of what I post is abnormal stuff people don't want to hear, but it's 'normal' to me. So now I just feel even more like an alien.
To be honest, reading a lot of the posts on here makes me feel alien too, most people have other people in their world, siblings, children, spouses. I've never had another person there in my life and I can't relate to it. I just get sick with anger and jealousy. I just wish I could have people who were just there who knew who I was and I didn't have to explain, and I could get hugs or a 'hello' in the morning or a 'how was your day' in the evening. I've done everything you're supposed to do but none of it has worked.
I've been trying to make friends on the internet but they all have their important people in real life and I am no-one's. I am way done everybody's scale and I would like to feel like I'm important to someone. Every self-help book I read and helpline I ring assumes that I have people already there. It just all makes me feel even more like a freak.
I have worked so hard my whole life at just surviving, I feel like I deserve some reward, but then that feels narcissistic and selfish. I don't know of any other person in mental health services that has no-one at all. Sorry to go on about it but I'm so old now I'm so sick of it. I read some websites about dating but they all made it quite plain that I am past it and nobody will love me in any capacity in the state that I am. I fail all the tests.
I know you will all dispute that but the evidence speaks for itself and I can't bear it. I'm already having nightmares about christmas, which is when I crack up the most. Everybody's got somebody except me and I can't cope with it anymore. I try so hard to be positive but it just goes on and on and I just can't bear it. | I know what u r talking about cuz that is me too. I don't have much energy to respond to anything but at least i'm trying and u r too. I'm i very much pain right now when reading getting me more and more aware about ptsd and how much affected i'm or it, also i'm from sweden living in us ao my english spelling is not the best..  |
31-07-2006, 04:46 PM
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Originally Posted by anthony Life always throws challenges our way Monica, but for every negative, you can always find a positive, if not two, just to keep your head above water.
You just found a place where people know what you feel, understand what your saying, and have often walked / walking the same path as you are now in relation to symptoms.
You just found a whole bunch of people who know what your talking about, experiencing, and suffering. Welcome. | Hmmm...it sounds very weird to me that people understand..lol..i have tryed so hard to explain to people close to me and no one does.."just go on with your life Monica and forget the past" |
31-07-2006, 06:51 PM
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.."just go on with your life Monica and forget the past"
| That's the whole point of ptsd! Your memory hasn't fixed the experience/s in the past, so they are not the past. Every time you come across a situation which is similar to that experience, your brain tries to fix in the traumatic memory - hence the intrusions/flashbacks. At least - I think that's how it works!
I have an example: We have a bunch of kids staying on campus this week. They arrived last night. I was sitting minding my own business when I heard running footsteps going past my building. I was absolutely terrified and couldn't move. When I realised where I was, I just cried with relief. I think that it was because the sound was so similar to my brother running after me - consequences were never good when that happened. Anyway, that's an example of how flashbacks can work. Your friends need to get educated!
Welcome to the forum Monica!
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31-07-2006, 09:38 PM
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Bingo... what a well represented example Piglet. A flashback is a vivid image, or as if your reliving a past traumatic event, or incident again. It is like being their, as Piglet described, how the running past took her back to being in her room and her brother running past, same footsteps noise.
You often see veterans have them, when they stop what they are doing, they may hit the floor, begin yelling orders to those around them, as if they where reliving a particular event that occured. |
01-08-2006, 03:52 AM
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Sorry, I don't have the strength to respond to much right now.
Woke up feeling like total sh*t this morning after only 4 hours of sleep.
My stomach has been in knots for over a week and it's just gotten worse.
Anxiety level is sky high and I just can't concentrate on much...
I'm just barely getting through today.
For some reason I thought my appointment with the surgeon was today,
...last night I almost cried with relief when I noticed it was actually on Tuesday.
Sorry for the negativity... but I'm just being honest.
I'll be back in abit... need to escape into a game or something... anything. |
01-08-2006, 04:32 AM
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Thoughts are with you for your appointment with the surgeon. I hope everything goes as smoothly as it can do! |
01-08-2006, 04:48 AM
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Thanks dude :)
I'm just stressed...
turning on the game... right... now...
be back in abit :) |
01-08-2006, 02:04 PM
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I had a teacher once who used to say "life sucks...and then you die"...I've been down for some time now...sure, there are good days...but few...I seriously need some :sleep: | | Thread Tools | | | | Display Modes |  Linear Mode | 
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