Nam, that's terrific!! When you have a good day, celebrate it like crazy!! I'm so happy for you :)

Oh Veiled, your pain and conflict comes through so strongly in your writing! That's an awesome gift :jerk: (am I too old to be saying "awesome"??) LOL

I thought I'd share a couple of pearls of wisdom with you. The first is from my husband who despises the anorexic heroin addict look that is so popular today. His comment is "Aw go eat a burger! Women are supposed to have curves not sharp angles!"

And here's a couple little ones from me:
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Oh god Boo I love those! Especially the coffee one. There's something about those fifties-style housewife adverts that's creepy and sinister.

I've had a crap day. Kicked off with some nightmares, spent the morning losing a friendship over money, feeling a disgusting failure and crying uncontrollably for hours on end, went online, got tangled up in a horrible chinese-whispers misunderstanding between acquaitances, got no work done at all. I feel a wreck. I was engulfed in the horrors of having reached 35 with no childhood, no adolescence, twenties crapped up by illness and drugs, no career, no relationships, no house, can't even drive, and I'm decrepit and over the hill and still can't control my mood swings. Going to bed will be a relief. Goodnight all.

Purdyamos,
May your night be peaceful and your dreams only sweeter than you!

YEAH Nam! Toot your own horn! toot it loud lol! I am happy for you :)

Boo I like the pic, I have to go find it but I had one that looks like that but it says how about a nice big cup of shut the f* up. That one describes me more LOL.

Purdy, I hope you get some rest and feel better. My evening is just starting...


OK, the teen daughter was picked up from school with the others and she has proven yes, she actually does need/want her ass kicked.

I am sitting having a nice conversation with my son about the girl he dumped. Yeah, no more hickey! I already told him he was better than and deserved better than any girl who would degrade herself in such a way. Any way he said I was right. Repeat - my kid said I WAS RIGHT! OK, after that bomb shell he goes on telling me he really needs to get to know the girls better before he dates them... like I said he should. This one would be nice to people in their face and when they would leave he said all she would do is put them down. He told her he did not like that and you should not be fake, don't pretend to be friends with people, it was just wrong. You have something to say to them say it. She did not stop so he dumped her. She said maybe some time later in the year? He told her when you learn to quit being rude, ha ha ha!

Then he started talking about the kids flying gang colors at school... led to conversations about idiots as a whole following more idiots, then to nazis. My son and I have some pretty deep conversations because he can. The idiot in the back seat then piped in... guess she needed to feel involved or the back of my hand, not sure which.

Short conversation, not a conversation really. Went a little like this and my translation.

Her "what is so wrong with nazis?" translation - Mom, I know our family got out in time from russian poland so I am blessed to be here alive, so would you please come over the back seat and whoop my ass? I need sense knocked into me right about now.

Me "Shut your f*ing mouth, you know damn good and well." As she had this explained over and over and my son has done reports on the subject.

Her "I just don't see the big deal and some people say it never really happened" translation - mom I want to start a debate about something just to disagree and I will find a sensitive subject even though I could never really have a battle of wits as I come unarmed, again, would you please pull over and give me the ass whooping of a life time, I think I REALLY need one.

Me "Shut the FU and don't act like an idiot." I am losing all control at this point and trying to drive.

We get home and she was fine in the car, but all of a sudden she doesn't want to carry her pack in saying I am going to get sick. I told her get her little ass back to the car and I could give a shit if she puked all the way there and back after what she said in the car. Puke to your little hearts content, that was just God reminding her he hears everything she says and a little hello. I proceed into our house. While outside she tells her brother she thought nazis were a boy band. She was lucky enough I wasn't out there and my son saw me cool off before repeating her, I think I would have tackled her. She knew damn good and well who they are, what they are, and what they stood for and did. And then she wants to put on the "I am a ditz" routine on top of it????

My oldest son went upstairs when he got in and made her bed for her when we got home, as she has not cleaned her room it will stick out like a sore thumb. He placed the book "beauty fades, dumb is forever" in the middle of the bed for her and told me. "mom, make sure you read that book too so you can make a test for her. He said that way you know if she read it and comprehends it. Any question she misses have a punishment for it set up in place already and let her know. And if she misses them make her reread it until she gets it right."

I told him "thanks mom"... Yeah, I think he will be alright. Blows my mind these two teens are only a year and a half apart. He also ran around and cleaned the living area, kitchen, bathrooms, and started a load of laundry and is out playing with the foot ball. I was worn out so hard core today I could get nothing done and he just zipped through and did it. I have spent my waking hours feeling like a ticking time bomb ready to blow today. Today my son is my God send... My daughter more along the lines of demon seed. I have not even started supper yet, she has a good few more hours to try and work me up. I already told her I do not even want to see her lips move the rest of the night unless it was yes ma'am coming out.

OMG Veiled...TOO funny. LOL (literally) at the conversation and translation between you and the dear daughter.

My oldest is just getting into the attitude as she's a freshman in high school this year. So far it's not too bad, but I'm bracing myself. After her is another daughter who I swear has had PMS from the day she was born (and could turn it on and off with the flip of a switch). She'll be the one I'll go to war with; the other will just be a battle...

And just think...one day she'll have kids of her own...

veiled... that translation was awesome :)
hahaha

I'm still in toddler land. Not exactly wonderful ALL the time. I have two daughters that can scream higher pitches than our piano. And our youngest somehow can get two or three other notes out at the same time. I have very short patience with these things since I don't think screaming because her panties are on backwards is justified. And, I might add, (sorry venting), life is NOT over because I decided that they can't have a movie tonight BECAUSE for the first time in MONTHS, I want to watch TV. But that's exactly what I did, watched it, but did I hear it? Nope, not with all that tri tone, half tone screaming in my ear. I finally lost it, and screamed with my whole being back at her. And of course, she cried and told me she was scared. And I told her that it doesn't make me feel good either when she screams at me...but if you asked her, she never screams at all. Ever. Talking about a case of denial!

Okay, I've already posted for today saying how great of a day I was having, well, it turned downhill from there. Something about less sleep, and very ungrateful children could do that. Unfortunately or luckily, I don't have PTSD to blame it on. Instead I think I gave my daughters a complex about screaming.....

Time for sleep y'all. I hope the night is peaceful and restful for the rest of you!

:boxing: both psychodoc and therapist got on same track....want me to be in hospital....my chem system out of wack after missing 3 med times....PD [psychodoc]....don't waaaaaaaaaaant this....but still wanting to get give myself a break to give self best chance to getting system on track....will need to wait til I can get rent paid Friday....can't get perp's hands off me....

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I hope this does not offend anyone... wait - doesn't that negate the entire statement in the first place???
I'm so confused :crazy-eye