Hi guys. Been trapped inside myself for a week or two. Haven't felt like dealing with anything, but then it all builds up, so here I am.

My pregnancy is kicking my butt, I am so tired of the morning sickness, and the tiredness. Ready to start looking pregnant instead of just feeling it.

A friend of mine committed suicide last Saturday. He was only 25, what a waste. I had known him most of our lives, since he was 2 and I was 4. My gosh I miss the hell out of that boy. He was such a beautiful person, always smiling, and so positive, always giving out hugs(the best hugs). He was so much fun to be around. I'm really going to miss him.
The unfortinate thing about suicide is such a private thing that all too often, no one sees it comming. Logically, I know that, but part of me keeps thinking that if I had gone to see him maybe I would have known something was wrong, and could've helped. Logically I know that isn't true either, but you know how our minds work.

To put a positive end to this rather depressing post, I have decided that if the baby is a boy, he will be named after him-Brandon.

Hope everyone is well. Happy autumn, by the way!
Ya'll take care, C-ya!

Very sorry to hear that Anna.... never a nice thing at all.

Hmm, I'm cranky. I have pneumonia. I am two weeks behind on school work and exhausting myself to keep up. Traveling ten hours a week for judo. Struggling to find a new place to live. Miss my partner like there's no tomorrow (a year, right now, is like eternity to wait for him to come home.) I'm basically just a grumpy sick person.

*sighs* K, I'll get off my pity pot now.


I'm sorry to hear about your freind, anna. And a happy autum to you too!

Bec

I am really pissed at the moment!!

I feel like they are findidng the pettiest things to f##k with me about at work!!! seriously along the lines as he has a stapler and so and so doesnt (not really a stapler!) still BS nonetheless!!

Get well soon Bec!

Doing a little better myself - sleeping is slowly improving, so everything else is helped a little. Also had no messing around from work, other than wasting my time in a noisy office where I can't think straight.

Nam, I get the part of it being scary. I really hate it when I feel I am about to lose control.

Anna, that is terrible news. My condolences. For the morning sickness you could try some ginger root capsules. I used to take 2 at a time a couple times a day. I used to have a horrible gag reflex pregnant so it was hard to even swallow vitamins with out hurling. But if I managed to get those down my throat it settled my stomache down a lot. I don't miss being where you are! And I won't miss it when you hit the cough or sneeze when you are well along in it either! Kerri-Ann should be about at that phase.

Bec, I hope you feel better soon.

DD like you, you could not tell I have them either. I am working on a belt. I went to a doc once and he had to see my belly, he responded with an uncontrolled "whoa!" He apologized right after saying he just did not expect me to have those, I did not look like the type. Ha ha OK... They are addicting. But in my little warped mind I find it relaxing and it doesn't normally hurt. The "pain" isn't painful, it is like I melt into it if the artist is quiet! They can be very relaxing. The last guy screwed up the one on my lower back, the parlor offered to fix it, uh no! You screwed it up once shame on you, but you think I am letting ANYONE in that place do it a second time??? Hell no. It isn't so bad it needs an overhaul so I will wait until I can get to a place I trust to fix it, don't want them to have to chance to mess it up beyond repair. I still have the sides of my hips to do but I cannot make up my mind what I want. I know I want one to symbolize anger, but not look stupid.

Hey piglet, I am so happy to hear your sleep is improving. I think I just finally hit a crash and burn with mine, those damn CDs I bought for sleep don't do jack shit for me! But I keep playing them, go figure... Spent the money might as well use them. They work fine on the healthy mind, they keep hubby out for a while! I slept yesterday evening, last night, and a nap this AM, and right now I am on here fighting passing out again so little one is attended to and I don't sleep through picking up the kids from school! I just cannot keep my eyes open it seems for the last 18 hours. I am supposed to take the meds right now and I am thinking more meds to mellow me out are not a good idea, but I know how sick I will get if I don't take it... ugh, I get so fed up sometimes.

Veiled,
It is hard to tell since I wear business attire all day. I am looking forward to a full sleeve, more like 3/4 sleeve. I have designed many tattoos for different people but never "inked" anyone.... possible hobby

My boyfriend had two full sleeves done, and part of his back.
I've never had a tattoo, but it's as if I'm aching to get one done.
I want a long tattoo that runs down the side of my body, something with lots of curves and maybe tribal?
After watching my honey get all his tats (many long hours spent at the tattoo shop...lol) I'm not afraid of the pain, I think it would be theraputic, numbing...

Anyways, last night I went to Tim Hortons (the canadian version of Starbucks) because my brother wanted a coffee.
So I order his XL coffee, when I get to the drivethrough window the girl (new employee) hands me a Large coffee.
I mention to her that I need an XL and how much more do I owe?
After refusing to correct her mistake, she starts to argue with me.

Now I have one of the shortest tempers.
So I was soooo damn proud of myself when I stated "you are wrong" and drove away.
Guess what the lil b*tch did?
She did a cat cry/hiss out the window at me (hinting I was being catty or bitchy)

I contemplated throwing the truck into reverse (even though I'd probally hit the next person in line) and chucking that hot coffee at her.
My poor brother (who has seen me blow up numerous times) coaxed me to leave the parking lot.

I drove all the way around the block and went back.
Parked the truck and went in the store.
The whole time my brothers saying "just don't do anything stupid, calm down"

Ended up talking to the other employee, I just asked her for the name of the employee that did the cat hiss at me.
That chicks like "oh, well in her defense, she thought you said a large coffee"

I'm like "at this point that doesn't even matter anymore... is cat hissing a normal Tim Hortons protocol?"
Of course she just said "no"
Got the names of the cat hissing employee and the manager.

I'm so pissed.
Yet proud that I didn't immediatly jump out of the truck and beat her ass!

I am proud of you too, even though some people need a good ass whooping! You did not get yourself in trouble and that is the good thing.

Thanks veiled :)

Yeah I'm probally not even going to call the manager,
I just had to do SOMETHING otherwise I would of been furious the rest of the night.
The look on the cat hissing chicks face was fear.
I wasn't freaking out, just point blankly asking her why on earth she would think something like that was appropriate. lol

Thank goodness for that drive around the block,
At least I wasn't seeing only red when I went in, hehe