anthony, no need for thanks, the kicks are given when needed, LOL
And I know you'd do the same for me,
Good to hear you are taking a "break" before "you break"

boo, that conversation was great, lol
I always have a conversation (or two) going on in my head 24/7 too,
Your positive outlook is amazing, I need to start telling "my voices" some of those things, hehe
Gonna test out your breathing technique, see if it helps me too :)

veiled, wow sounds like you've got your hands full with those turkeys!
What a way for a hen to go, I don't even know what I would think if I discovered that!
Good luck with the wrangling... lol

kimG, I have no idea what would cause someone to harm another human being.
Some people are just sick, and twisted.
It frustrates me when tragic events are just passed off as "gods will", because it downplays the event to the survivors.
I know the world seems scary, but you can't let yourself dwell on it.
The "what-if's" just stress us out and sap our much needed energy.

GR'ass, take the second choice, panic attacks at moms.
Either way you've accepted that panic attacks are a definate possibility.
Maybe moving back to mom's will help lift some of the pressure daily life puts on us.

becvan, brain farts are funny, lol
just thinking of the word makes me smile


And finally... my day.
long... not too much sleep... so if some of my replies did'nt make complete sense, sorry but I tried.

Landlord stopped by today, (scheduled appointment)
so I had spent the previous day/night/this morning frantically cleaning.
We have 2 roomates that moved in yesterday, so I had to clean out the 2 spare rooms for them too.

Oh well, appointment with landlord was short and quick, so I managed to run to the local coin laundry and wash boyfriends work coveralls for him (if I can smell the stink... I know they're rotten)

Oh yeah, I found the missing remote for my PVR, so I was hooked up with my recorded shows tonight. So happy about that.

Ummm... forgot to take meds till it was over 9 hours overdue.
I started wondering why I was feeling so anxious when I remembered.
Anyone else have problems remembering to take meds?

Well, I'm heading to bed, tired and my eyes hurt.
Good day overall though :)
TTYL

Y&A

Thanks Y&A for mentioning the meds. I'm the one who has to remind hubby about his. We now have a whiteboard up with the days of the week for appt times etc & we put a tick on the board to tell us that hubby has had his pills for the day. Good in theory, just as long as I remember to put the tick on the board ( I tend to suffer from goldfish memory sometimes! LOL)

I have one of those pill boxes for the week that is in a circle shape. When I was really forgetful, I would put the ring over my toothbrush. So that reminded me to take them when I brushed my teeth. Nothing like slimy teeth to remind me to take my drugs!

Good day so far, but it's only been started for about a half hour.

I tried that breathing method last knight and it worked. I used to try the yoga type ( you know the deep breathing and feeling every breath all the way in and out while thinking of that peacfull place) it made me more anxious trying to follow all those instuctions, but that simplified method works way better.

Having a Shitty week. Mood swings on a dime. Feeling very depressed and had thought of suicide. I know that is not the answer and had talked to my therapist yesterday and have Dialectical behavioral therapy today and then my psychiatrist tomorrow. I am making all of them aware of my state of mind. Do not want to be hospitalized again but maybe necessary to keep me safe. Wife is on edge of giving up. She has read some post and understands to a point what I am going through. My therapist thinks I maybe passive agressive personality and also possibly bipolar. They are still trying to figure me out. I feel even more lost because I was feeling better knowing that I had PTSD but know they are thinking I have more issue along with PTSD.

what do you think about writing down what feel in the poem section maybe it will give you some kind of release becuse then you won't have to hang on to so many thouhts in your head the 'll just be there right in front of you.Almost talking back to you.

I'm having a good day. I got money today!!! About flipping time! I'm starting to feel happier with the meds, yet I'm sleeping about 18 hours a day. That sucks. I feel like I'm babystepping myself out of some dark hole.

Anyways, a good day today.

Y&A: thanks for reminding me to post how I feel. Sometimes, I just forget and yesterday was one of those "I have no idea how I feel" days.



Bec

Bec, that is wonderful news!

Pitt Bull, so sorry to hear you are having such a rough go. I am glad to see you are taking positive steps to help you and you seeing you need to. I don't see how being passive agressive is so horrible though and would not stress overly on that. So you are acting like most normal women do on a daily basis! OK, so you are not a woman but we fair fine with it for the most part... I am sorry about your wife, I hope she can hang in there for you. It is a hard road.

Meds are not hard for me to keep up with when I am not reducing the dose, when I am in reduction I can't remember crap and have to write it down.

My day... Oh let's just not go there today.

jods, I'm just glad to hear I'm not the only person that forgets their meds.
A white board would be a great idea, but again, just got to remember the "ticks" lol
I think that it is awesome that you are helping your hubby to remember his meds... with all the stuff flying around in our minds... it's so easy to forget to take those daily pills.

Nam, yeah I have a pill case too. Unfortunatly I have to take meds every couple of hours, but putting that case somewhere where I "will" go (like to my toothbrush) is a great idea.
Maybe putting the pill case next to the computer mouse might work, lol

Farmer, I'm assuming you are talking about Boo's strategy?
I agree, it's alot simplier (and hopefully more effective)
When I get myself off of the sleeping meds, I'm going to remember to try this.

Pitt Bull, don't dwell on the fact that they feel you may have more than just PTSD.
When I was diagnosed, it was with PTSD along with 3 other disorders.
It doesn't change anything, or make you "worse off" it is just the doctors way of trying to put a name to your problems, so they can hopefully help you.

scarlette, I love reading the poem section, I just don't have the way with words to write in such a beautiful and powerful way.
Painting is a small release for me.
But you are absolutly right, if pittbull can start writing out the thoughts it will help sort out things in his mind.


I've been going through the cold sweats all morning...
I did take my meds on time, but something just feels "off".
Oh well, I have the rest of the day to try and feel better.

Take care :)
Y&A

LOL, wow, this just opened my eyes to how slow I can take to type out my posts, after I posted it, there were already 2 posts added before mine.
Oh well, at least I have the energy to be chatting right?

Becvan, I know exactly what you're talking about, somedays I just need a little "push" to remember about myself.
Money is good! always a nice stress relief,
plus, meds are going good... AWESOME!
Dont' worry about passing out for 18 hours, your body will catch up and hopefully things will normalize in a bit.

Veiled... oh one of "those" days...
dont' let it get you too down.
And vent here if you need it, that's what we are here for :)

TTYL
Y&A