Good day.... been busy fixing things and then working here. Going to take my teenage boofhead to the motocross tonight, which will be nice and relaxing for me. Train ride into Melbourne, short walk, motocross, back on the train later tonight, back home. I love chilling on the trains.... nothing to worry about compared to driving through traffic, especially peak hour.... yuk!

I have atrain that is right out side my window it winds around the moutainside.The only reason I am upis becuse of th arthritis in my face
Sent me flying out of bed:boxem: It's like you think your whole face is going to just crumble to the ground.I probably need to sleep with a skee mask on just so my face don't get cold in the winter time.sometimes when it hits me I fall completely a part:crybaby: I got me a goody and it already kicked in thank god sometimes I have to slam it down with a beer Yuck! I am not a beer fan .ooh
I hear my husband snoring and I am getting envious.:sleep: yeah thats right I soo need to go there.

just woke up...
tired and restless,
stupid nightmares seem to be getting worse

Well I hope that me talking about my face did not set you off.Really do you think those nightmares are worth a hoot? do we have to pay attention to them.I don't pay attention to mine any more or let them scare me any more becuse if I do it feels like I am entertaining my fear. Hope your feeling lots lots better.Your a sweet heart.Maybe you should just go back to bed.

I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed. I have a sick child at home, have a dutch test, have to ready the car for a trip tomorrow, load up all the summer stuff in the truck, wash dishes etc.. Plus the new therapist today.. My brain is just whirling right now..

So, I'm going to enjoy some coffee, watch some Dr. Keith, and try and relax for an hour then tackle everything one step at a time...

It's gonna be a long day and I'm exhausted. I'm not sleeping again. Guess it's time to start on the meds already. Damn.

Bec

Bipolar anyone! I had an aquaitance that had that and at first They were giving him the wrong meds.He was as hyper as hell at night. time was an attention getter and then tried to kill himself in front of us.I saw something online About some one who was diagnosed with ptsd and the they changed it to ptsd!What if a person could have both?can that even be treated?I have a distant relative that I'm sure she has bipolar Not sleeping sucks! She would not let me sleep.

My week has shot up this evening/afternoon. I got a nice long nap and feel like I am pretty much bouncing back out of the crash from my trigger. The kids are yelling and not doing chores and I could careless, at least I am not letting it get to me! Let hubby have at it when he gets home soon to deal with, mean huh?

I am in a relaxed state of mind for a nice change! Feel like curling back up in bed, but not in the depressed way, just lay down enjoy my soft bed and the breeze; let my troubles just float away. I haven't felt this well in a long, long time. Thanks for the support guys, would not have been able to do it without everyone of you!!!

I decided not to go to the concert....I am not going to beat myself up over it....There will be another concert Sunday....With all your encouragement I am sure I can get to this one....Good News!!! Hayley [my cat] has had no wheezing spells so far today!!!....I took a couple of naps...really need them!!! Have not had good sleeps other than the night I moved in...therapist says it's only because it's still a new place that I am still getting used to...so I'm not going to worry about that....KEEPING THE PEACE

great news about Haley!

Had kind of a numbing day. The paxil is really kicking in, but my body is still trying to get use to it. Only been on it for a few days now. We are in the process of moving so my hubby packed boxes all day long. I just layed on the couch all day. I wasnt stressed about anything, but I could tell it bothered him. He kept asking if I was depressed. I wasnt, I just didnt feel like doing anything. I told him that my body was still getting use to the meds and that I would be back to normal in a week or two. Not very convienient seeing as how were moving back to NC next week and at the moment neither one of us are employed and we have no place to stay. But oh well. My meds are not allowing me to get stressed about it. Not sure if thats a good thing or not. I feel like I went so long being stressed that once my body hit its breaking point, now I need time to heal before I can stress again.

I am kind of bummed about my dog though. I have had him ever since we have been engaged. Hubby got me the dog I asked for for 6 months when we got engaged. But he was old when we got him at the humane society. His health has deteriorated drasticly since the baby was born, and especially since weve moved out here. He has lost a lot of weight, and wont raise his leg to pee, and is having more accidents. I originally just chopped it up to old age because I couldnt afford to take him to the vet. But Today I realized he couldnt see. He can barely get around and he keeps walking into things. He cant even really smell or hear correctly. I feel so bad. My brother use to be a vet Tech and told me that it was because I didnt take him to the vet months ago and now he is getting worse and will die. I dont know what to do. My credit card only has a $200 limit and were barely going to have money to get home next week. This just hasnt been a great week. Although Im on meds and Im not responding to the stress, I know that it sucks.