Bad night again. I was awake for a lot of it and didn't enjoy the part where I was asleep. It sucks, but it is usual for me after a trip home. You didn't make me sad! I made me sad!

Dog is fine. Got herself covered in mud this morning and enjoyed it immensely. She spent a lot of last night by my bed, so I guess it must have been a fairly bad one for both of us. Going to start teaching her commands in French in preparation for our holiday in August! Should be an interesting task! Hope your game goes well YA.

I have never really been a big sleeper as such, as I only get what my body tells me I need, and no more. Normally 5 - 6 hours is heaps for me, though generally once a week I will get 7 - 8 hours sleep or have a nap during one day somewhere if I am just starting to feel exhausted. I basically nip exhaustion in the butt when it happens, which helps a lot before other problems arise.

This forum, and all my other sites, have caused me a fair bit off stress in the past, but I have learnt over time now to just not worry about it. Some days I simply don't even turn the computer on to have a break from it, and then the next day I might work for 8 - 12 hours on here catching up. This is one of the reasons I asked for people to help out here with becoming a moderator and helping to build the content within the informational sections, because it was causing me stress not getting it all done. Basically, no different from most with PTSD, in that I want everything done yesterday, and things aren't getting done quick enough, which causes stress.

Nowadays though, I start thinking those things, realize I cannot do everything myself, then think about practical solutions to still achieving the end goal, ask for help if needed (which I did here), and really just knowing my bounds of realism, in that I can't do everything. I have some posts here that are in moderation at present (meaning they exist, you just can't see them) that are a bit of a bug in my butt, ie. the medication one, but I just think each time, I need to ensure my health is good first, then do a little bit more, and eventually it will get done, with little to no stress.

I guess it is just something that has progressed with me in recovery from PTSD.

Anthonys such a superstar, lol :)


Hey everyone,
I've been reading all your posts but just didn't feel well enough to reply.
This week I am doing trail-and-error on some of my medication levels,
..see which dosages work best...
Been pretty groggy and "complicated" the last couple of days.
and I'm never taking yesterdays dosage again...
my stomach hasn't hurt that much in a long time
just starting to recover from it now actually

Hi YA,

Hope you are feeling a little better today. Damn medication, evil beast that it is. Once you've sorted the dosage that is right for you hopefully it will make things a little easier. Don't beat yourself up too much about being a little 'complicated' while testing this stuff out, it can't make you feel very nice. Hard for you guys when you have PTSD which already adds stress to your body and then trying to find the right balance with medication. Seems a little cruel that the stuff which is supposed to make your life easier can sometimes make it worse. Anyhow, take care of you its just one of those rough steps to finding out what works for you. As Anthony keeps saying, it does get better!!

Hmmmm... certainly no superstar, maybe a super boofhead, which Kerrie would agree no doubt.

I have been a little off the last two days now, hence why the shortage of online posts. It wasn't anything major, just a little down I think, a little exhausted and just needed a bit of rest, which I have had and all good to go now. I nearly passed out the other night, not sure why, just went to poo real quick, but then come good. Had some water and all was well again in the land of me. Yeh! Anyway, feeling better now and more motivated once again. I definately lost motivation for computer orientated stuff the last couple of days, so I spent them with the kids and missus instead, hanging out, doing stuff, playing with the little fella, having a coffee at the shop, etc etc.

I think the week just really tired me out good and proper last week, as a few changes got included and some more activities for bub, so I am putting it down to my mind and body just needed a little more room to handle it all, ie. new inclusions! See how this week goes, but otherwise, I have been out and about, hanging with the family, doing other things like cleaning up, mowing lawns, going to the footy, and I feel pretty good now... shame its 11pm and my body is saying sleep time!

Slightly better today thank you Kerrie-Ann, still waiting for the pain to stop... hopefully by tomarrow.
Very cruel!
When you body is fighting what you put in it...
it's so horrible, its' like you are supposed to choose...
emotional relief with agonizing pain,
or risking nervous breakdowns to feel physically better.

p.s. - Kerrie-Ann even though you don't suffer from PTSD, I'd still love to hear how your day went,


So far my day has sucked... but that just 'caused by the dosage changes in meds.
Horrible stomach, it felt like my body was dying, I couldn't even type anything on the comp for abit.
Little better right now... I'm assuming it'll be over by morning
Hope everyone else is having alright days.

Slightly over did it yesterday. Got a bit carried away with feeling good and forgot that I don't have the energy that goes with it! Wore myself out. If I was sensible, I would have rested up so that I was in good shape to start the working week. But hey! Why shouldn't I enjoy my time off?

Hope today is better for you YA

Today is another good day pretty much. Took the little fella to his swimming lesson this morning, did some work online here whilst he slept, cleaned the house, did dinner and now settling for the night. The little fella slept for 3 hours today... swimming obviously wore him out, as it should have, considering he went flat chat for 30 minutes in the pool.

Now for some work to get done online, and hopefully begin some other posts here.

Thankyou for asking YA. Pretty good here, Anthony has been feeling a little off and sometimes that can really impact on the rest of us but not so bad this time. Got my uni assignment finished yesterday, which leaves me a total of two subjects, four assignments to go.......yeehah. Its hard going sometimes juggling the work, husband, teenager, toddler, cats and the and the one on board, but I am too damn stubborn to give in now. Just wouldn't be like me to take the easy road.

Noticed that the meds are still messing with you a bit. I am sure it will be a lot better when you find the right balance. I agree with you it would really suck. I have seen Anthony quite physically ill with PTSD, as he was the other night and then to have meds messing with you...Take care of you, try and rest and sleep if you can. Another sad irony that the one natural thing like sleeping is even elusive for those with PTSD. You would think nature could be a least kind enough to let you get a couple of hours, undisturbed sleep to battle the daily demons!!

That was so well said it brought tears to my eyes...
Recently sleep has become my enemy (although it is sometimes the one of the few times I have relief from physical pain) because of the nightmares my mind just isn't able to rest... it's hard... but I'm sure you and Anthony have dealt with this so you know what I"m talking about.
Thank you for your kind words :redface:


Sick from the moment I woke up... although not nearly as horrible as yesterday
Depending on fruit and other non-greasy meals to ease my tummy.
Anyone know of some good anti-nausa remedies?