wow....we are all not doing too good today :(

I Dont feel too great myself either.....eh besides it being a freakin monday
I didnt have the best weekend eventhough we got alot done at the house, so im glad my hubby, i and the fam all got together and worked on cleaning up...
My husband is officially on medical leave (due to his PTSD) for a month... Im kind of nervous+ paranoid about it (for personal reasons) I dont feel good about it... but all in all, In the end, i really hope this helps him and he feels better when its time to return to work. I hope what he has planned at work turns out for him. I will try my hardest to support him (eventhough lately i seem to suck at it) but i wish i could get over the things that trouble me in order to give him the support he needs from me :(

Today (10/16) is a pretty good day. I had "just the right" amount of things on my to-do list today. It's warm so I actually got some outdoor time too. I'm a bit tired now and feeling "flat" so I supposed a nap is in order. Hopefully I can get some good rest and then be perky when hubby comes home. I have lots on my agenda for tomorrow, but I will cut it way down if need be (sounds good right now anyway LOL!)

I knew I should not have said that!!!! Big bolt of lighting outside and a huge boom... And everything is out now, not sure how long battery will last on this and I hope they fix it today. We have gone days without power before out here. Seems if it is not densely populated they don't get in a big hurry. Well, the ducks are enjoying swimming in the yard, I am not. Glad I did not take the kids to school, no way I am getting out in this shit! Just wish power was on so I could here the tornado warnings... Can I take extra xanax about now? I think I might. I am a bit freaked. The sky is really falling, not in my head!

Well, I must bust this up I guess, and as usual, my days are good. I haven't had a PTSD bad day in a while now... taking bub to play group soon! When things are bad, you must analyse why they are that way, then counteract the reason or thoughts.

Today was pretty good, didn't have to yell at any snot-nose-know-it-all-teenager-wannabees today....LOL...(I actually enjoy working with these kids!!). Anxiety level is a bit up today, though, as I prepare for a meeting with a parent tomorrow who thinks it's perfectly acceptable for her son to turn work in a month or more late and wants to fight us taking points off for it (actually, my attititude is, hey turn it in, but it won't get graded cause I can't take off so many points or else it would have a negative point grade on it!). She also expects us to stay afterschool for her son to make up any work he missed - mind you, not because he was absent from class, but because he just didn't "feel like doing" it at the time. She says that she's talked this over with her son and he absolutely hates the idea so she thinks it might be the motivation he needs to do his work in class when it's assigned. She expects that any time she emails any one of us, we should instantly jump online and respond to her every need, even if the reply is to say that we read the email and will get back to her. I don't even have time to go to the bathroom, much less jump online with a parent whenever she feels like it. I am lucky if I can check my email once a day, and then it's usually at the end of the day...

I'll let you know tomorrow how it all ends up...

But other than that, my day has gone pretty well...

My day sucked the big one... nothing but issues today. I'm still completely exhuasted and my smart-ass father called at 7:30am to wake me up because he was up. Lucky he called me, if he had have been at the door I would have brained him. Next came a fight with the store I was trying to buy a cell phone at, then the bank, after that my Dad came to visit and reamed me out about my lack of finances, then came therapy... UCK. Haven't even looked at a school book today. Then came catching my 11 year old in lie about his lunch (now he's into self starvation, omg) and on and on it goes. I just want to sleep for the next week.

Therapist told me I'm not doing so well. HAHA, no shit.

Bec

Ohh, I forgot about the dog shit episode.. The neighbor, right in front of me, let her dog shit in my yard then just walked away. So Bec, got the shovel, walked in front of her car as she tried to leave and flung the shit back in her yard. She says to me "I should have picked that up", I said, "yes , you should have." Horrid dog owners.... GRRRR

My day started out great...cont. great...is great for the time being...and I hope it ends great this evening once my husband comes home from singing and we watch a movie he rented earlier this evening. My great day is highly unusual and may or may not ever occur again. The one thread of dissatisfaction today was I am a smoker, but I didn't overdue it. Tonight's bedtime story for the kids was our stories of Bobo, the big pink elephant. They want so much to have a part in posting one of these sent. Also, I read to my kids, kid's wisdom from Chicken Soup for the Kid's Soul. Homework's complete. Karate & Dance complete. Kids in bed and soon in will walk the man... My man...I love this man.

Sorry you had such a sh#*tty day. I was typing how my day went, walked away from comp. finished, submitted and now I see and read yours. If it's any help, yesterday was terrible for me and just 24 hrs. later with some willingness it has improved greatly. Today was no easy day, but it was great and I truly hope for some release for you too, soon. Very, very soon.

I got up set alarm for another hour but didn't end up waking until 2 pm as I had not pushed the button to turn it on....I had an appt. with my psychodoc at 3 pm and it takes over an hour to get there So I rushed..got ready and hit the road...ZOOM!!!! I was an hour late but that's okay with him as he usually runs behind....[He's the only doc I know who sees you even if you are an hour late and doesn't charge $25]....I talked over my decision to really get into my TRAUMA via Anthony...this forum...my one friend...and my therapist....He said it sounded good to him...then we discussed about taking me off a med to make it more possible for me to get in touch with my feelings....so I am now off the remeron I was on...he said that it was the one that was doing the least for me and just stopping....there should be no side effects....I am taking him at his word and not worrying about it!!!

That is pretty funny Bec.... hopefully a bit of relief for you even flinging some dog shit back at the neighbours yard. Done that myself before... cracked myself up afterwards.