I think her screams will be heard around the world as she has already told me that only crazy people go to the doc I do... Nice. Explained best I could not so before, but to help sort out feelings. But teens are like talking to brick walls.

Totally agree about the brick walls and teens. Logan had his girlfriend come around today, and I said to her that she enters his room at her own risk, for the mess, filth and teenage boy smell. Funnily enough, suddenly he cleaned his room spotless, because earlier I looked and she and her friend where sitting outside the door, not wanting to go into his room. Amazing what influence a girl has opposed to me or kerrie telling him to clean his room.

I've had more logical, coherant conversations with brick walls than my teens some days!!!!!

Veiled,

Does your family qualify for the kids to be insured through the State of TX? If I am recalling correctly, TX is one of the states that has a child health insurance program (for some reason I think it's called CHIP). I don't know what is covered, but it might be worth a shot. I would hate to see you stop your therapy for her, but I completely understand the sacrifices we as mothers make for our children. Perhaps the CHIP program would cover therapy for your daughter and allow you to continue with it also.

There is very little reasoning with teenagers and almost nothing that you, the parent, tells them will be believed. They know it all and everything that goes wrong in their life is our fault. We've been through it with Warren's kids (actually still going through it, even though the oldest is 21) and I'm sure we'll go through it with mine. Our hope, though, is that once they are on the other side, with relationships (both failed and successful) under their belt and kids of their own, they'll see the reality of it.

Often they will talk to someone else, a complete stranger, and tell them all the little secrets that they would never DREAM of telling a parent. This is where counseling comes in handy.

Also, have you talked with the counselors at school? Often they are not equipped with the time or resources for therapy in school, but they will have resources to direct you in the right way. At our school we have a local mental health group come in and have sessions with some children - those children who really need it but whose parents won't or can't take them after school hours.

We're here for you, Veiled. Let us know what we can do for you.

I have been high as a kite lately. I don't know what is going on. (I'm not taking drugs....hehehe) I just have this dread creaping in that I'm going to crash. But I also can't help thinking that just maybe, just maybe, this is the way "normal" people feel like? Happy, motivated, determined, strong, are not my usual qualitites, but that how I feel right now. I guess I'll just enjoy it while it's here.

Go with it Nam, is it not funny about this thing even when we feel good the neg thoughts try to ruin it. Don't listen to it, have a smile and enjoy it.

I've been up sinse 4am, had those weird dreams where you are trying to justify yourself to every one in the dream and everything goes wrong no matter how hard you try. It's funny yesterday on the news they showed a study a university did on dreams, they wanted to find out what people were actually dreaming about (they would wake the people up and record their dreams) what they found was 80% of the dreams were about things that worried them and caused stress in thier lives.

Run with it Nam and enjoy it!!!!! I am so happy for you.

I had nightmares last night. Don't remember them in detail as it seemed like so many or so long. I woke when I stepped in a shower and instead of water I was drenched in blood and could not get out... "Real pleasant" and very little rest.

Said what needed to be said today as opposed to denying it and pleased with myself as a result. Husb., kids and I did a little shopping for guess who? Me. And, I'm thrilled. The four of us went out for icecream today, and enjoyed this very much. Also, went to the pet store and fell in love the puppies. I can tell my son wants a puppy more than anything in this world. He had asked us for one last year at Christmas time. Hoping this will be realistic and come to pass perhaps at Christmas or shortly thereafter.

i felt better today, finally. forgive my whining lately.

Twitchy, very twitchy today... :(