Anon, stick with it. You mentioned your lack of emmotion. I think thats caused by the PTSD. That is one of the things I hear regularly about me. I don't smile and I don't frown. Just kinda there. Stay with us friend. Life does get better.

I just woke up from nightmares so I am going to type. I am always shaken up and scared after them. It is like I am forced to think about it 24/7. I just cant take this. I feel like I am being tortured. I am sorry, I cant think right now so I will go away for now.

Anon, being haunted 24/7 is a fact we have... In the beginning. Yes it gets easier. Type what you are feeling and vent it out. It is a step in the right direction.

I also want to add real fast you have been pulled from moderation so free to post, so get to posting hon and get it out.

For a long time after the accident I was injured too. I just didnt really care because I was just so devastated and still am about my girlfriend. I got stabbed by some glass chunks in my stomach, and for a little bit after I would cough up blood now and then. Sometimes I have phases where I will pass out or think the accident was happening again. Sometimes my dreams seem really like they are happening. I feel like I am in a dark hole. It is just really hard for me to get by. Sometimes I get a little too crazy and will start talking to her like she is listening. What is wrong with me? I feel so out of place and unbelonging and like I have no use anymore. I dont feel important or anything. I am too scared to talk to people, I am so shy. I feel like at any random second something bad will happen just like that. And something important will be gone. Everything scares me like riding in cars is hard. I will jump if anyone even makes a movement towards me even unintentionally. If someone comes up from behind, I get freaked out really easily like I am being attacked. It seems like I am too sensitive and fragile. If someone says something to me in the wrong way I will not be able to handle it, I will just go to my bed. I am done for now.

well, first posting here you need to not be senisitive (or try hard) to what others say. Being in the same boat we kind of just say whay we think and it is not always sensitive. But again remember all responding are going through the same.

Everything you mention is very normal. The part of speaking with her is normal for those even without PTSD.

I have had a stressful night so I cannot say much of use, but I want you to know you have not said anything we don't all deal with... We do have better days with time and some days are ehh... you just don't want to talk about.

Today was another hard day. I woke up from a nightmare. My g/f was dying with me right there, and my hands had blood all over. Sometimes when I wake up I am crying, Is that normal? Then I went to school and put my head down the whole time. Thank you for replies. At least somebody knows.

anon, it is very normal to wake with emotional responses. Damn I think just about anything you can come up with is par for the course... it sucks but it is so. In time when you work though the emotional aspect and issues it gets easier. May not seem like it, but it does.

hang in there anon. Vent and talk as much as you need to.

Anon, every single thing you have stated here is perfectly normal with trauma. Not one thing is left field as such. Anon, trauma is like a thorn in your arse, in that if you leave it their, it hurts. If you pull it out, it hurts more, but by pulling it out, the pain goes away eventually. You will never forget the pain or the thorn, but the pain itself has subsided. Think about what your doing here as slowly pulling that thorn out of your backside.

Now, lets get to the guts of the issue anon.

• What age where you when the accident occurred?
• Who was driving?
• How did the accident occur?
• Where you wearing seatbelts?
• What speed did the accident occur?
• What where the weather conditions the accident occurred?
• Was there other vehicles / people killed or injured / involved?
• How did you get out of the car?
• How did you get your girlfriend out of the car?
• What did your girlfriend die off exactly?
• Have you had an MRI for your head trauma?
• If so, what where the results?
• Did you attend your girlfriends funeral?
• Do you now have your license?

I have lots more to ask, but lets deal with the above first.