Yer, that sucks. I suppose though, it is better knowing now than once started, that one knows the other, especially when the other caused the problems to begin with... damn. I notice that even here, as all the veteran friendly physc's know one another, but none of them here have ever done anything like that, so the only reason you change really, is if you have a personal disagreement with one, or just can't connect with them.

Chat later...

Anthony

I uploaded my picture. Hope it showed up. I am going to be out for awhile so talk to you soon. Like my gopher cheeks!!??

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Why hello you... that's pretty cool. Is this the comfy chair that you sleep so much in? It looks pretty comfy...

Anthony:

The chair is my dad's chair. Mine is very similar, only mine reclines back. Mine is in the room that is in the background. That is my den. That was Kisha with me. My pride and joy. She just had her hair cut last week. Kerri-Ann, what do you think of Kisha? A cutie, huh?

Well, hopefully tomorrow I will hear from that other therapist and see if she can get me hooked up with a different therapist who specializes in EMDR. Crossing my fingers. Have been having some increase in symptoms - anxiety, panic attacks at night, waking up quite a bit. Have a doctor appointment tomorrow for leg pain. It seems everytime I turn around something goes wrong with either my foot or leg. I came to realize a while back that I hold daily stress and tension in my legs and feet. So been working at relaxing them when I become aware of it.

So, Anthony, how have you been? How are things going with your older son. Good, I hope. And how's the little guy?

Also haven't heard anything from Alexander or Evelyn. Soon I hope.

I will also let people I know about the forum who have PTSD. All I can do is let them know the support is there. If they are ready, they'll check into it.

Going to try and sleep some tonight. Worked midnights last night, but didn't get much sleep. Have tomorrow off. If my brother isn't occupying the computer, I'll check in.

Hi all

Last week was out a few days at a conference for my job. Another night I didn't sleep all night. So when I wasn't working or at meetings, I was sleeping. This weekend was much better. When to work out today. Went to work for 6 hours.

I checked a few times last week, and no one had posted, so thought everyone was taking a break?

How is everyone doing? Anthony, haven't heard from you, are you okay?

Haven't heard anything on the EMDR yet. Still waiting to find a therapist. Should hear something this week. I sure hope I can find one who can do the EMDR. Would like to get my life into some kind of "order." Getting tired of ups and downs. I know having symptoms is a part of PTSD; but I would love to lessen the amount and intensity. And definitely I would like to have normal sleep.

Started doing some more crafts this weekend. I am going to use some of them for Christmas gifts.

I hope to hear from you, Anthony; and also everyone else. Talk soon.

Hey Kay... yer, sorry, I've just been taking it easy myself over the past week... a few marital problems... all good though. That really bites that you happened to get a therapist who had a conflict of interest.... or as Homer Simpson would say, DOH!

I am just taking it easy at the moment, not doing much at all. My wife is driving me nuts, and well, I have a limited scope to handle too much, as you well and truly know. She is a bit better tonight, thus I am also... good thing.

I had my older son this weekend, and took him out to the motocross Saturday night, and we went ten pin bowling Sunday... which I kicked his and Kerrie's butt... Logan got all cocky though as he beat Kerrie the first game, but then she smashed him the second game, with a few strikes right at the end of her game. He didn't see that one coming... matter of fact, I don't think Kerrie did either. It was fun though. I had a good relaxing weekend with my eldest, and my little fella, well, when he's older, he can come to the motocross too.... whoo hooo.

I have a little bit of work to do this week, so that will keep me busy. I'm looking forward to moving in another five weeks... that can't come soon enough for me. Townsville is very much a military community, and I need to escape it, as some parts of it trigger me at times, ie. helicopters flying on the roof tops, and so forth. I get a bit edgy at times. Mind you, I was a bit funny Sunday after going to the motocross Saturday.... but that is just the usual crowd thing I guess. Something I am trying to learn to cope with, though I don't do it often, as I hate feeling unwell the next day.

Hi Anthony

Sorry to hear about your "spat"? So you are moving? It sounds like that may be a positive move on your part.

Haven't been around this last week (especially mentally). Have been at meetings, appointments for clients, working extra hours. And when home, I am exhausted. Today is the first time I've actually been feeling somewhat relaxed. And I have some time today for myself.

Still have not found a therapist to do the EMDR. This last therapist called and told me there is also a conflict with her office. I guess the therapist I saw for five years was well known. Well, now she is well known for not being around. I am beginning to think that no one wants to work with me because of the lawsuit. Now I pay for it. I would think that therapists would not want someone who practices that way (crazy) around in the community. So have not been feeling so great in the hopes of getting the EMDR therapy lately.

Nancy, the therapist I have now, is helping to try to find someone who does EMDR, and who would not have a conflict working with me. Nancy is even surprised that these therapists are turning me away. So I'm hoping by this next week she will have heard something.

Anyhow, I have been working out quite a bit. I feel good after a workout. Feel energetic and "strong."

Have some memory loss again. Much of this last week is "gone." I am not sure how to stop this. Scary when you can't remember much of your week. Haven't been sleeping that great either. So, I am hoping that soon I can get into some EMDR therapy.

Will be having visitors today, my aunt and uncle are coming for the weekend. Haven't seen them in about two years. So it will be nice to "catch up."

You take care, Anthony. I am glad for you that you are moving out of that military atmosphere. I think it will help you a lot.

Will talk to you soon.

Kay

Hey Kay-Dee... how's things? Yer, I am getting a little excited about moving now. I really can't wait to get out of having so much military around me. It will be quite refreshing to really relax more, within a less volitile community, as I see it. I can't escape it whilst here, as it doesn't matter where you live in Townsville, you will come across military people living next to you, or close too you. I sit here and listen to some of the typical "sterotype" soldiers, sitting around, drinking booze, getting drunk and talking army loud enough so the entire neighbourhood can hear them, right next door. They then have their mates coming around, getting drunk, being loud, etc etc, and talking army. It shits me to tears at times, as I just can't escape it here. Melbourne is a capital, so I won't have any problems escaping that type of atmosphere their.

That sucks with the whole conflict of interest stuff. You did the right thing by putting that therapist in court, and exactly as you stated, you would think the peers would be happy with that? Obviously they are just scared now... maybe they're not very good either though? Hence why they are scared, as they're not confident enough within their own abilities to treat you correctly?

You will find one, no doubt about that. Getting fit ha!!! Nice. I am going to get one of those buggies that go behind my pushbike, so I can put bub into it and go riding again. I love riding my pushbike... much better than walking for exercise.

Visitors... that sounds great. I don't get many family here, as its too far for them to travel, hence I generally travel to them, as they are all in the one location, or close enough. Mum and Dad visited recently, and that has been it really. We went out to lunch with some friends of ours today, which was nice, as they are leaving here in two weeks for Brisbane, where they are posted to with the army.

Anyway, I must keep moving and do some stuff around here. You take care Kay, and say hello to everyone for me... a big HI, and I'll chat later.

Hi Anthony

I read your post about what sounds like a trying day. It sounds like you made good decisions and got through it. Way to go. I don't like to move around either. Have moved quite a bit in my life.

I think I may have found a therapist to do the EMDR; however, it may be a couple of months as she is working on her Level II certification. I may also see her for pain management. Having so much pain in my right leg and hip. Getting foot orthotics in a few weeks. I talked with this therapist and believe it or not she does not know that other therapist I saw. She knows who she is, but never worked with her or spoke with her. So, maybe this will work out!!! I'll be calling her today to discuss some options with her.

Been working out quite a bit. It seems to help with anger and frustration. Still haven't conquered the sleep problem.

I have a 3-day weekend - - - Yay! Need those little breaks from work. Going to work on crafts this weekend.

Well, I need to get my butt going. You take care, Anthony. I hope everything goes smoothly for your move. It can be a pain. Talk to you soon.

Kay Dee

Hey Kay... your doing very well by the sounds of it. That's great that you have a therapist with no conflictions in regard to the one who caused you the problems. I think this therapist is going to get quite a shock from what you release in regards to what you have mentioned here... more to the point, the nitty gritty detail of what the last did to you. You go girl... good stuff. My wife often says she is going to get me a punching bag, so I can go and take out my frustrations on that, and gives her somewhere to send me when being bad... "go to the boxing bag, now", he he he he he.

Three day weekend! Sweet... nothing like more days off. Yer, this move has been a little frustrating already... ok, heaps frustrating, but dealing with it. I just want to stop, and so does Kerrie, but atleast another couple yet to get everything done that she wants. I am just following her around nowadays...

Geez, with all this working out your doing, you'll be taking on the boys soon enough in arm wrestlings or something. Lean, mean, fighting machine... I do need to get more motivated into my exercise again... I am just lacking it at present. I will get off my arse though and get back into it once this move is out of the way.

Anyway, you take care and catch ya later...