Terry, when I started having to work on PTSD (excuse tupos now hands shaking pretty hard this AM) But any way when I started I felt like I could cry at any moment for any thing. Before my ultimate crash I never cried (lord I could not ever show such a sign of weakness) But me cry ha never. Except pregnant that doesn't count... I would cry over diaper commercials then when I saw a baby in them. That was a hormone overload, and would suck it back in, change the channel as it was silly to me. But therapy, and having to look in myself, start pulling all this shit out of me... Oh I wanted to cry. I got close a couple time and was thinking yes, this is it as I felt I really needed to to release all this bottled up pain. Still I would be hanging with my eyes tearing up and then gone. Nothing come of it.

I really wanted to cry, and finally one day for some reason I do not recall now I got a good one. I finally cried. Guess I am not done as it was not the relief I expected. Maybe that is why I dried up again as it did not seem to help me. But that is going to be something I work on, Because I do not want to cry at the drop of a hat over every little thing. But I think I do need to release more and allow myself. I used to get the shit pinched out of me over the back seat if I cried as a kid as we drove down the road... Or the famous, you want something to cry about I will give you something to cry about and then the hunt was on... I was punished pretty harsh for crying. I got punished more severely for crying than acting out in anger and rage when I broke things. How that made sense to the parents I have no clue.

But sum it up yes, I teeter on crying a lot. Not as much so as before I finally did have that cry. I sometimes think I am being ridiculous to cry and other times I feel like I should and why won't it get out. That just depends on what day you catch me.

Hope you can let that good cry come, it helps some. But personally it did not help as much as I thought it would, but like I said maybe I need to more. But as of right now, crying does not work for me as of yet.

Hi Terry.
Yes mate I often have a cry, I have cried more since having Combat Stress than I have done all my life.
So don't worry mate, let it out. Better than keeping it in.
Cheers
Scott

Terry,

I cry every day. You name it, I'll cry about it. I wish now I'd bought stock in Kleenex!!! My therapist told me that after years of supressing emotions, now that I'm dealing with the traumas that the genie is pretty much out of the bottle and all of those emotions that I pushed down are now finding a way out.

Although I have perfected the art of crying at work (ladies room) and not ruining my makeup. Hey...at least it's a new skill. LOL :tongue:

I get the urge to cry quite often. Mostly when I am stressed, which is a couple of times a week or more at the moment. I cried today with my counsellor. First I felt the urge to cry but because I'm so used to hiding my emotions it I found it hard to start crying. I get and ache or a lump in my throat, but my counsellor said it was OK to cry so I allowed myself to do so and felt better afterwards.

Yes Terry. I know that. And I think the same as Andre. This often arrives at me when I see from epic or war films (Troy for example) I have the music of series "Band of brothers", "The last samourai" because it emotionate me a lot. Some people scenes of some films give me desire to cry but I suppress it. I have this nostalgia of friendship, the sacrifice, courage, the truth, family all these things when showed in TV affect me. I think that it is due to the nostalgy which I have of the world were govern this type of virtues. In the film "saving private ryan" when I am at the scene when the mother of Ryan sees at windows the car of Army to anounce her death of his sons and when she falls...I forward such that I dont see it.