:crazy-eye Whew!.....Much to do in the next few hrs. to be ready to leave for retreat today at 4:30. Will be staying 2 nts. 2 days....and not far at all to travel.

1st time since my children were born since I've spent an evening away, alone. From what I hear there will be proper ind. solo time as well, which I'm glad about, but not necessarily thrilled. Rather a little anxious. As sitting still with myself, is not one of my better talents.

And, OMG, do hope all goes well with ability to sleep in the evening. Tempted to place one single sleeping sedative in my pocket, if need be, but highly unlikely that I would ever take it due to the side effects following day, and just my general attitude about going on a retreat and simultaneously taking a pill.

Have not once been on a retreat of this sort or one in several years. Don't know what to expect. Anxious. Will be going even though I already know that it is partially facilitated by a man who once witnessed, a part of mine and others trauma. Soon to find out if I'll encounter any triggers.

Going on hope and hoping all proves somewhat relaxing, centering and helpful. How my invitation to this retreat, all came about, is much of a surprise. I guess it's just one of those unusual mysterious that have happened in my life when I've made prior committments to healing my trauma. Some of these prior committments I did really follow through with too, but inevitably something beyond my control stepped in and brought it all to a hault, or a temporary end.

Will be gone for a couple days.

And, you can bet, I'll be thinking of all of you, and this forum. Keep up all the magnif. healing and God Bless.

sincerely, goingonhope

Have fun and I hope you can enjoy some peace and quite... I need a retreat LOL.

Have a great time Hope. I'm very excited for you and a little envious! I hope you come back with friends, hope, and renewal.

Hope,

Enjoy the peace and relaxation of your retreat.

Goodluck hope, and get that rest you deserve.

ah hope, i hope that you will be able to enjoy some relaxation and "you" time.
cathy

Have fun......

Glad you are letting yourself have this opportunity. I look forward to hearing about your experience. Rest well!!!!!!

This sounds like a good thing! I hope it's going well and you are relaxing! Let us know how it went when you return..

bec

Hi all, I'm back from the retreat and doing. Didn't know quite what to expect, but certainly found out.

Thanks all for your kindness. Appreciated your comments deeply as I briefly logged on and read, upon arriving home.

Many mixed feelings :fight: tonight. Combo. of confusion, hope, renewal, fear, ....you name it.

Retreat was a success, but given a little time I'm now getting down on myself. This retreat involved signif. therapuetic work which has me now face to face with some trauma and hurt. Triggers there for me, throughout the weekend galore! Much resulting in extreme emotion (fear, rage, sadness and grief), all expressed in proper time and place with much helpful attention returned. If I'm honest with myself, I must say I did an extremely good job balancing the present with the past....so as to participate, confront my trauma, and not fall apart at any inappropriate times. Why is it that I have a relentless 'judge' inside my head that awakens, nags at me and is merciless at times. It sucks, And, I'm sick 'n' tired of this damn thing ripping me off again and again in all my insecurities. So many of us do have this. It's hard.

Thanks again all, for your support.