Busy day on the forum then!! Welcome aboard everyone!

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[COLOR="Magenta"][/COLOR]Hi!...Olivia!!!! I may be new...I want you to know that I am here!!! Even though I have suffered greatly for years....I have to say that I have learned many things along the way...Keep on communicating!!!!

Thanks for posting back!!! I've been up all night again..Seems like that's been happening a lot these past few weeks!!....PTSD is a very crazy and rather horrifying as of late!!!! I will see my psychodoc tomorrow!!!! I will go very early in the morning so I can catch him and not have to wait so long to see him...He takes more time if his patient needs more...He's so good I can't complain about the wait....

Thanks for posting back!!! I received quite a few replies!!I don't feel so alone now!!! I am in the USA....

Yer, it doesn't take long wildfire for people to say hello around here. A few hours tops generally.... depending what everyone is up too around the world I guess.

[COLOR="MediumTurquoise"][/COLOR] I sent you a private message...guess I found my way back to your last post on my intro "page" I will take one extra med and hope to get some sleep....taking a very very EARLY 1 hour and 15 min. drive east to see my psycho doc....going early so I can hopefully get back home before I get scorched by the HEAT...I napped 2 hrs this afternoon...Woke up terrified!! I NEED SLEEP!!!! I want to soooooo badly to stop experiencing these crappy symptoms....maybe tomorrow I connect with someone who replied to my INTRO...

Hello there. I'm so sorry you're going through this seemingly never ending nightmare. Once it's triggered off you just feel so trapped and the world becomes so distorted, you're hijacked by your own uncontrollable memories that you can't file away. It stinks, it really does.

I find it difficult to judge what time it is round the world and relate it to the time that people have posted. If you don't hear from anyone for a while it must feel extra frustrating. When you're so isolated and in the thick of it even a few minutes can seem like forever. Whatever time it is now in Ohio, I'm thinking of you now and I so hope you don't feel alone for long.

I hate the way self-help books and therapists and helplines just assume you have someone there. Trying to cope on your own is just torture, I know. I hope you can get some sleep and hook up with a forummer or two very soon. Maybe me, but I've got to try and sleep myself!

Take care, don't give up hope. xx

No...the only thing I did was say in a small mealy voice.."don't touch me"....not much was it??? and that was after the "touching" was over...I know it's because of the terror I was brought up in...18 years of physical..sexual..emotional[mental] abuse..[:gunem-dow!!]....then add the rape[1yr. anniv. March 19th] I just froze during that too....I guess I'm not doing a very good job at protecting myself...am I?? I have to use a wheelchair when I go out as I have severe arthritis in my right knee...the wreck I was in [Feb.8th-freak snow storm] finished off my cartilage in that joint....I still can drive....I'm thankful for that!!!! Unfortunately the "e" incident resulted in a major flare-up of lmy PTSD symptoms...DOES IT EVER STOP???? I'm trying to move out of this building down to one 25 min south of here....management has given me the run around though I had a letter from my medical doc.....Now me and my therapist are creating a letter with a veiled threat...[my apt. building is subsidized by the government] He said we are going to WAR...My psychodoc is writing a letter also...I had to print off stuff from the local housing dept. website to give to my PD and this weekend I've run the same stuff off to take to my therapist's....If all of this doesn't result in a move down to the college town of Oberlin...I will undoubtedly experience a major MELTDOWN!!! Tomorrow I think I'll try to get laundry done.........wildfirewildone

Yer, I think you have suffered enough crap wildfire, and honestly, you can stop beating yourself up about the protection issues. One can only defend themselves to their capability, and are not invincible as such. You did the best you could, you got over-powered, and it isn't your fault.

I never understand why everything has to turn into a paper war, in that we need to cut down more trees to feed the paper in which we must fill out piles of crud, in order to achieve what we need to achieve. You would think in todays society, we would use technology a bit better than we do, and stop having to use paper to make everything official, so we have proof. Electronic writing is now legally evidence, though very little people use it as such. Strange... but I guess human nature. Its always hard to change a persons old ways, especially society as a whole. Give em hell wildfire, and stand your ground. After that incident, I would want to move also if I where in your shoes.