Well, I still hadn't got my final check and the ex-boss is playing games about it so I went to get it. Hmm no vacation pay and no record of employment (which is law that both must come with the last check) So now I have to call the ministry of labour, send in complaints and start this whole legal process.. I just am at my rope's end.

This is my life lately:
-on disablity and all the running around for them
-Matt's PTSD out of control
-My PTSD out of control
-Chris's emtional problems and violent tendencies
-Matt scared of Chris, house now turned upside down
-Living room floor ripped up but not finished
-Financial issues
-FAC's involved concerning chris's issues
-just finished court for jerk off
-have to apply for child tax benefit for chris, will be big fight with father
-was going to move, now might not be able to
-doing PTSD workbook
-doing imagery therapy
-working through triggers
-broken truck
-trying to get chris' id (his dad lost all of it)
-med issues and disablity fight with doctor
-can't see a pych (on waiting list), no therapist for me, none for matt

ETC... I could keep going. This is the list of crap sitting on my shoulders right now. I'm on the verge of a big crack and I know it.. I can't take much more..

bec

Just wanted to add, the ministry is sending me a complaint form, then an officer will be assigned to it, they invesitgate it and then order the company to pay me what they owe. Ha. Goes on the business permanment record. That made me feel a little better anyways

Shit bec that's a lot of crap to be dealing with all at once. Not sure what to suggest except try to take it one thing at a time, one day at a time. Kathy and I will be thinking of you.

Thanks Jim. I'm down to second by second currently! I need to "hire a spouse" to give me a hand. LOL. I could start a business with that idea!

bec

Who knows, maybe you could! That's a great idea!

The fact that you are dealing with so much shit and still standing? And still doing self work? And being so supportive to others on the forum?>>>> MAD PROPS, baby girl. You've got fortitude!

Glad to know someone like you! Your process continues to wow and encourage me!

sheesh just one of those would be enough!......i admire the fact that you're still coherent! big hugz from downunder, hope the pressure lets up soon
cat

Hi Beca, that is truly disgraceful. Contact your lawyer, or even better get your local MP (Member of Parliament) to sniff about over this. He might be able to help you.
Scott:cussing:

Thanks guys. I started to hit a hard crash yesterday. Went over to my girlfreinds for coffee. We must have told the kids to simmer down ten times. Well guess who got hurt? I just snapped. Dragged my youngest home, made him shower and off to bed. Chris came home a while later, took one look at me and started tiptoeing around me. I was ready to kill someone last night. LOL, good thing I'm running out of meds as I wanted to eat about four times my dose just to get some peace. ARGGGG, being allergic to alcohol can really suck. So this morning, I have to double check my youngest's chest (he got squished with two hefty kids jumping up and down on his back) and make sure he's okay. I'm going to try to avoid life as much as possible for the day. I have one appointment, and that's all I'm doing!

*I do that much because I have no choice.. no one else to come and help or take over for a day. I'm finding though that I'm crashing harder and more often due to the stress and that I'm not getting back up as far as I should each time.. *

bec

Hi Beca, Come on Lass try and calm down, I know its hard for me to say, but for the sake of your sanity, try and relax, the kids will be upset to see you like this, and please don't even think about taking more tablets or I'll come over to Fort Francis and kick your ass right down the High Street.
Try and get a good sleep, try and drink a mug of cocoa or horlicks to make you sleepy, with lots of milk in it.
Take care kid.
Scott

Can you find the key word here, bec? You know where I am going with this...

I'm actually going in the opposite direction of healing. If I were healing, I would be crashing, then getting up, and my up would be longer, my crash less. Instead, my crashes are longer, my up less, and everything is harder.

So ummm, nope don't know where your going! (heck, I don't know where I AM right now, never mind where anyone else is! LOL you get the idea.. have to point out the obvious to me here...)

bec