I Wish I Had Faith - God Or Myself? - Page 4

Loathe · #31 06-03-2007, 02:35 PM

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Originally Posted by mac

I wish I had faith in God. At one time I did, but with all the evil and suffering of the innocent that goes on throughout the world, I cannot maintain any such faith anymore. My mind does not comprehend how God would let man's free-will trump what's supposed to be His will. When you look at other societies and cultures, it's not difficult to see why the old explanation of religion as mearly a 'means to control the masses' is so valid.

This topic resonates deeply with me.

I just got back from an AA meeting. 2 days clean, bit over a year sober, but that doesn't really count does it :)

I've been in and out of the program since about 14. Stayed clean and sober for three years once. That ended while I was in Afghanistan. Really got trounced once I got home.

I have a hard time after the things I've seen, and the things I have done, accepting that a loving involved god could be real. I have a need for a higher power I don't seem to be able to make a personal contact with right now.

I was told to pray for faith, and thats what I'm going to do, I guess it's all I can do today.

Today I'm sober and clean. Today I didn't let PTSD hurt my family, my career or my friendships. I haven't always been able to say that.

mac · #32 07-03-2007, 02:35 AM

"I was told to pray for faith, and thats what I'm going to do, I guess it's all I can do today."

Pray for faith... that is my prayer too.