hello everyone
I call myself maus I am a physician I am dutch with ptsd
I joined because I saw another physician here with ptsd
It is difficult to find a suitable forum
Just a few days ago a found a dutch forum that just started
the majority of members are suffering from ptsd due to sexual abuse which is a topic that doesn't relate to my trauma at all.
Many people also have comorbidity with ptsd, other psychiatry problems, I don't have
I red a lot on the vietnam vet forum but I don't write messages to them because I want to leave them alone and just learn from them
In the netherlands a lot of psychiatry problems are now labeled as ptsd or resulting in ptsd or it is additional to their former problems. I don't feel that I belong to that group of people they have other symptoms
It is difficult to find or start a forum because nobody of us realy wants to talk or say anything about our trauma's like me.
I like to talk about the problems resulting from the trauma and how to cope.
My main problem is uncontrolable explosions of anger that realy starts to irritate me because it is endless and going no where
I have 2 therapeutic counselars and no medication
I hope do learn a lot from you all en wish you well
excuse my english if it is not flawless

Welcome to the forum and I hope you find what you need here. We are a bit of a mix trauma wise, but we are working on the PTSD, not specific traumas as a group though we have to talk about them to get to a better place.

We all have a variety of comorbid symptoms but I think myself and other will say it is over use of labels.... PTSD is well PTSD.

Hey, your English is amazing as it tends to be for you Dutch folks. It can be hard to find somewhere that 'feels' right. I know that in my case I didn't feel worthy enough, that I was never in a war zone therefore was not worthy enough...a reply from someone on here soon put paid to that (made me realise that this was not the case and my case was worthy).

You say you are a physician, so you have a big advantage in terms of awareness and learning how this works.

I understand the anger thing. I have told some people about it, who are likely to manage to anger me, so they know if I walk away, it is because it I need to, and because it is better for both sides.

Learning to manage behaviour is not as simple as the person explaining it would like to think. They are not in that place. If it was we would all be perfectly organised, all acheive our goals, all learn to learn to a higher level and noone would ever have a negative thought...so baloney to that being an easy one to achieve. But it can slowly be changed. Simply by me realising it's time to walk away....avoiding an explosion....or when having negative thoughts about past events to bring myself back to the moment *as soon as I am able* to appreciate the surroundings around me...and how lucky I am to see them. That I am not in that place in my head, that that place is merely part of personal history.

Welcome to the forum. It is a learning place, a venting place and a healing place. You are Welcome....

Welcome to the forum Maus!

I would say hello in Dutch.. but i forgot.. lol sorry.

PTSD is PTSD and the cause don't matter one bit here. I'm sure you will learn lots here and have lots to teach us!

bec

thank you for your kind words and welcoming me
I am aware that I want to learn from you and that you want to learn from me because of my profession. I believe however that I am incompetent as a physician due to the low selfesteem and the believe that I am damaged goods. My counsellor however dares to differ on that concept in my mind, she says that I am still the same and capable and good at my work (?) It could be a therapeutic intervention from her side :-) It could also be true.
Anyway I know a lot. I am familiar on both sides of the equation now unfortunately. However as a physician I rely on science as a patient I rely on you. Patients tell us what is the matter and we try with trial and errror to do someting about it. PTSD is to complex and a relatively new problem we know little about if it weren't for the patients to tell us about it. Lots have been written about what is going on with the patients but almost nothing what to do about it. Some theories about changes seen in the brain. But what does that say, what does that mean. How is that going to explain and help. All there is now is what we already knew. Therapeutic interventions. Meds? Aren't there, we use some existing ones only to attack well known symptoms. Is it a disease or a normal response of "normal" people in abnormal situations. If it is not a disease should we cure it than? Or stay away from it and guide people through the ordeal.
I know as much as you do. I have heard from people that contact and info from other patients is much more helpfull than the professional help they get or don't get. Partners in distress. All we know at this moment is what you all tell us. I can however read the science papers and understand them and for that matter I know and understand more than you. I can answer those questions. I can look it up and interpret it in non medical terms and explain. For example medications. But for that matter I also rely on the organisations and magazines to publish their findings on the internet. It only makes more sense to me what they write down :-) But to translate that in something usefull for myself to help and cure myself is a whole different story.

hey. welcome to the forum, maus. you will find a lot of support and information here.
cathy

hi maus. welcome to the forum.

Maus:

I did not mean learn from you proffesionaly (although it would be nice :biggrin: )

What I meant was that we teach each other through our PTSD. I will come up with different things you will not have thought of or tried and you will come up with things that I have not thought of or tried!

See? Easy as pie.. So nice to have you here!

bec

Sigh of relieve

Thnx for the learning explanation, I learn more from the stories of you all than I have learned from my study and experiences as a physician. I too am searching the web for answers and clues.
Thank god you don’t see me as an expert that would really cause a lot of stress. I don’t mind answering questions but more voluntarily than mandatory because I should know it all. I am only an expert in what I go through on a daily basis