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| | Notices | Welcome to PTSD Forum. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is a life threatening, debilitating disorder that can break down a sufferer’s body through anxiety and stress. Further it poses a significant suicide risk resulting from the brains neurological imbalance and chemical depression. Sufferers often live in denial, thus this community is aimed at helping PTSD sufferers help themselves through others experiences, guidance and education. We are here for the sufferer, spouse and families surrounding PTSD. Spouses and family are too often forgotten in this equation, and often they receive all the worst that PTSD has to offer. If you're involved in any way with PTSD, get registered and help yourself now. Non-active members will eventually be deleted. If you are not a sufferer, carer or someone within the mental health industry, and active, then there is little reason for you to be a member of this forum. Non-active members with zero posts are deleted periodically during the year. |  | | 
07-04-2007, 04:03 AM
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Can someone just forget to feel? I was so sure that i could not feel. And then there it is back. |
08-04-2007, 02:46 AM
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| |  Day 4
I am still there. Its now the fourth day. The world is the same like before but it is like i am exploring a whole new one.
I become complete. |
10-04-2007, 08:32 PM
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I want to stay here. :D And i will. |
11-04-2007, 09:45 AM
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Still i did not post about the main trauma. Well ... it is more a whole complex. |
13-04-2007, 10:13 PM
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| | Trauma
Putting all together,
i guess my trauma consists of these points
1. fallibility of trust
2. inability to change or communicate situations (helplessness)
3. the fact that i will loose everything and everyone
4. therefore loosing trust and interest in me, others and anything |
13-04-2007, 10:17 PM
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Sometimes i find myself lying ... to myself and to others. Why? I don't know, maybe as a protective mechanism? This has to end. |
21-04-2007, 07:42 AM
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| | Becoming myself again
I can watch myself redeveloping old behaviours. Behaviours that actually work for me. That is good. I also do regain old skills. I get back my old self-assurance and sovereignity. It feels good to get my identity back.
Sometimes it is hard, so much time has passed, so much is now unavailable. But i know that i am going into the right direction. Soon i will gain more speed on this way. It's going to be alright, and i'am ready for the negative consequences that may go with it. |
13-05-2007, 12:24 AM
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Ok, it's getting up and down, i knew this. ... Point is i've found the lie: As long as i can say that i have depression or ptsd i can hide myself. Gotta cope with it or not, it's my decision. |
30-05-2007, 04:17 AM
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Have been triggered again ... but this time it was not the same. I also felt something like relief and happines and it was gone after a very short time.
I am now going back into therapy. This time i feel ... unhesitant. I don't accept the status quo. There's more to my life. |
05-06-2007, 06:23 PM
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Burn, we all suffer the same, we all go through the same aspects in relation to exposing our trauma, hence why we all have PTSD to begin with, because we all locked it up and thought we could deal with it by ourselves. Only you can make the choice to help yourself, and that simply means exposing the truth about yourself and don't think for others, allow them to make their own decisions. We all do bad things... and these are what we learn from, they are not necessarily a true reflection off our current selves. | | Thread Tools | | | | Display Modes |  Linear Mode | 
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