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07-06-2007, 02:07 AM
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Hey anthony. I guess i know what you're pointing at, when you say "don't think for others". I generalise from 2 people on everyone, that's not necessarily correct.
Well, it's hard to speak about my problems ... the only people that i trust, have experienced similar things and seem to know how it is when i don't feel, the others go through a process: they don't understand and think that i just need to go out more (that's surely a good thing, but that's what i do), then it gets to a point where they ask how i feel now with them (they say it's nice, i say something like: i guess yes, i don't know.) and that seems too hurt them (what i understand), finally they seem to understand something.
But hey maybe i am wrong, and just fooling myself. |
08-06-2007, 12:42 PM
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Only you know whether your fooling yourself or not, that is not for others to decide. Sure, people can point it out, but only you can decide whether its true or not. Denial is a natural part of PTSD, have no doubt about that, and that is what you could still be in, denial. All you can do though is not think for others, but instead provide them the information and let them decide things for themselves, let them say things for themselves. If they say something to you that you do not fully understand, then DON'T guess, but ask for clarification. If they are insulting you, then atleast you will know it with clarification over a point, for yourself to then make an informed decision. We cannot guess, we do not know what others think, all we can do is provide the information to them and clarify in order to make our own accurate decisions based on others words or feelings. |
16-06-2007, 12:51 AM
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Hey, anthony thanks for your reply.
Today i'am kinda depressed, because it seems so hard to get that wall down again ... ok, at least there's some emotional reaction ^^ Today i wondered what perspectives i would have it the new therapy won't work or will be cancelled ... i guess that's a bit of negative thinking here, but at least i have plans b,c,d and e in order.
I'am impatient. I want it back right here, right now.
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It's like something in my stomach is screaming and wants out (not the alien-way though (; ) ... i guess there's much anger too ... at least i feel this vague, hmm, lust for destruction? ... I don't know where this will take me, what i will do with it.
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Last edited by Burn; 16-06-2007 at 12:55 AM.
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30-06-2007, 06:09 AM
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Just got through my mind:
Opening to those feelings like love, praise etc. makes me feel good, but turns me down afterwards, because i don't believe that i am able to maintain the situations and relations that are bound to this feelings.
Just because i don't believe that i am able, doesn't mean i am not. I surely am in most cases. I have to believe this. |
30-06-2007, 06:15 AM
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I did wear a mouthguard, because i chattered with my teeth. Sometimes it was so intense that it made other people in the same room wake up. | | Thread Tools | | | | Display Modes |  Linear Mode | 
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