Hi
I cant and wont pretend that i can even begin to undersrand the poems about your war experiences. but the first two really do hit home even though i wish they didnt. They are so deeply powerful. More powerful that i know how to explain to you but i know that you know how powerful i find them. They made me well up but in a good way becasue i know im not alone in having these feelings. The only thing thats stopped the tears from flooding out in a massive deluge is that i have to hide it because im not alone at the moment. Will read them again when i am alone and let the emotions flow. I know that that is good for me even though it is not pleasant. I am a very creative person (wow i said something positive lol) adn would love to give poetry a go myself. Maybe later tonight. Again somthing i know will benefit me no matter how hard it is.

Writing is very powerful but can also be a weapon. I consider my weapon words to be an ancient chinese ferret on occasions, knowing full well a snake attacks, yet not caring and prancing about til I kill it or it gets me..........(ferret joke, I have one)
What I mean by a weapon is I tend to be an extremist, I will do things to death, and writing can be that as well. Sometimes I need to walk away from what I wrote, and completely avoid it, giving me time to process what can't be done in an instant, (hate instant pudding) (and for anyone else reading this, might and I have a bizarre lingo, just ignore my bizarre comments unless you find them humorous, we do) which frustrates me, if its broke fix it, if they don't have the part give me the proper tools and i'll fabricate it, I want it done now, is my attitude.
So walking away and coming back in a week or so, when new stuff has occurred, (btw, the way my brain is now post ptsd, I am born every day and die every night, I do not have tomorrows, tomorrows for me are never, I only can relate to what has occurred and what is occurring in the present tense. Make sense?
Any who, writing is also very beneficial, it sneaks out things we don't realize, again leaving the writing when you've had too much, and come back to discover you threw in a way to help yourself out of a current problem.
I love writing.....................

whitewolf,
You are not alone. I hear you well. I remember too well. It hurts to think & "be". It will not go away & neither can we. We must persevere and tell as many people as we can, in whatever way we can. We will have more bad days than good no doubt, but we
have to hang on. We are linked to one another in pain. We must help one another thru the bad moments to the tolerable moments and simply know we are not alone. You are not alone.

DL, you are right in that writing is a powerful tool, and things do slip out, just as you have done above.

Do you feel being an extremist with matters helps you, or hinders you?

What can you do to help yourself take a more relaxed approach to your tasks and thinking?

No, being an extremist is not my choice, it's just without the sense of a tomorrow, I feel I have to get things done today, or they will never get done, thanks for the notice, I will keep my extremes in check or at the very least, notice them so eventually I will slow down.
Of late I have however, slowed and feel much much much more relax.
Again, thanks for the insight,,,

Its great that your feeling a bit more relaxed... that only helps you manage your anxieties that much better. Well done.