Thanks Kathy, those are excellent. I will be printing them off actually.

Spoke to Matt's therapist. We will sign the papers tomorrow and she is going to try to find the date of admission for me. I have the name of the SW that will be managing his admission and what not. We will get a tour by her, along with Matt's therapist, on Thursday. He will be on the adolescent mental health ward (thank god) as it's much quieter and calmer area. I will also get a brochure of the ward to help explain some of this.

So it's all going tickity-boo now.

Matt's therapist was glad to hear I went to my support system and worked out my fears and stress reaction. LOL, she said she figured that was what I was going to do and that she was going to call me today anyways as she felt I would have calmed down by now. Hehe, nice to have a therapist for Matt, that understands my reactions and time needs to calm down. Very nice. Makes working with her so much easier.


Funny, even she pointed out that I need a plan in place for while Matt is in there so that I don't go bonkers.. LOL

so it's going, I'm probably looking at Matt being admitted next week or so.

bec

I'm very angry today. Part of it is due to seeing my psych for the first time.. and getting triggered in there, part due to accepting Matt going in the ward for a few weeks. Very mixed up in my head.

I'm so very angry and frustrated with every thing right now. Will post more tomorrow.

bec

I don't know if this helps Bec but I freaked out when I realised hubby was going into hospital for the first time.

I think it was just a fear of the unknown but once I spoke to his doc & took a look around my mind was more at ease.

Do make sure that you have things to do for yourself while he is in there. It sounds selfish but it gives you "me time" & we all need that every once in a while. Plan a day to do something that is all about you because you deserve it!

I am sorry you had a difficult day Bec. I do hope today is somewhat better for you. I second Jodee; do something nice for yourself, as you do deserve it!

BIG HUGS BEC!!!

Thanks Jods, it does help. Makes me feel less like a wierdo. Well I got my guitar today and played for over an hour.. will probably play more yet today. (yes I'm overdosing on it.. been lonely without something to pluck at!) I find when attempting to play that my mind gets quiet. It's a rare thing.

Well we have the tour tomorrow. I'm hoping I won't get too freaked out. I got an excellent handout that answered all but two of my questions. So at least I won't have this huge list to go through.

Matt is really looking forward to it. Believe it or not. He's been very honest with me and has admitted he just needs a break from us triggering each other. I can't say I blame him in the least.

It's kind of, reassuring, that he wants to go. It's eased my mind a lot.

So far my plan for his duration, is to practice on my guitar (my goal is to learn one song while he's away so I can play it for him when he gets home), to crochet, and to visit with Ryan and kids when I'm not visiting with Matt. Not sure what else I can do.. but crocheting is mindless, guitar is relaxing/quieting, and Ryan and kids is human contact without major stress. So.. that's my plan to this point.

Matt had therapy this afternoon. I went in and signed the admission referral papers and then Matt had the rest to himself. He did really good and really likes his therapist. I'm thinking this just might work.

Still have a lot of fears, anxiety and anger just bubbling under the surface, but I'm a thousand times better than the last two days.

Thank you, all of you, for such much needed support. What would I ever do without you guys?

hugs,
bec

Sounds good all round Bec. Matt is a mature young man, being so honest with you. You must be proud. Hope the tour went well. Take good care.

Jim.

I am so HAPPY to hear that this is all positive!!!! GOOD LUCK!!!!! I'll be thinking about you! Take Care!

Had the tour. It's a very nice place. It was reassuring. Matt goes on Monday. God I'm going to miss him.

bec

it's very good to hear that. =)