Your day sounds rather busy! Good luck with everything Bec, do take care and keep us informed. Evie has the laptop in bed with her once again should you wish to chat.

Bec,

Hope things go well for you and Matt today, and in the days to come.

Wendy

Well I made it through the first night.

Matt is settled in and quite happy. Says he can sleep better because there are people to keep him safe there. Probably be the first time he's had decent sleep in a few years.

We were both given huge questionnaire's to fill out. I'm almost done. Matt was rather excited to know he beat me getting them done.

Hospital is already calling requesting I bring more snacks for him. He ate the entire bag from last night, that I had filled with goodies. I told them I can't.

Funny how I don't have money growing off the tree in the backyard.

Actually the nurse calling really stressed me out. After tonight, I won't even be able to afford to visit until the first, and I don't even have the slightest clue how I'm gonna make it to appointments for the next two weeks.

So I was doing well, now I'm not.

Just kinda want to tell the world to **** off really.

bec

Bec,

I know this is a really stressful time for you. I've had both of my girls in the hospital before (my oldest twice) and I know how tough it is to be a mom and have to step back.

Remember you told me to put my self care into action and take care of myself because stressful times tend to make our progress go down the pooper? Well, I'm giving you your advice back.

And Matt will get plenty of good food to eat while he's there. And he'll learn a good lesson about delayed gratification when he wants another snack and all of his were gone the first day.

You're doing better than you think right now. Now's the time for you to take care of Bec and only Bec while Matt being taken care of by others. You'll worry (moms do that), but like you said, Matt's happy and he feels safe.

Hugs and take care of yourself.
Lisa

You are a good Mama!

Only a quick note Bec, as I am exceedingly busy, however I hope you are fairing well. Yes it would be pleasant for Matt to have snacks, however not at all necessary to his recovery! The hospital should not be calling and expecting you to be constantly providing snacks for him, regardless of your income. Our tax dollars are paying to look after him in hospital, and that should include his feeding! I agree with Marlene regarding the lesson in delayed gratification. It is something all children must learn at some point. In any event, do take care and continue to keep us informed of yours and Matt's progress.

Well I am much better today. I was yesterday too, but was very busy.

Matt had an MRI yesterday, but got freaked so they have to try again, with sedatives. I've gotten many phone calls from him. He's getting very anxious as they are changing around a few of the other kids on the ward. The staff didn't even realize it till I told them. I haven't really been told much so far, so I have to rely on Matt for information. However he is doing well there. The snacks were straightened out. I explained to the nurse that I can not afford it. They think he might have an eating disorder, as he binges. They think he eats for comfort or boredom. I have to admit it's crossed my mind once or twice.

I'm not as depressed as I was. I spent all of yesterday with Ryan bouncing from here, to the hospital then his house. He kept me busy and that really helped with my mood. I'm not quite sure what I'm up to today.. but at least it isn't crushing depression.

bec

Keep us informed, Bec. We are listening!

It surprises me quite frankly that they did not offer sedatives with the MRI the first time around! Evie always has them, as she is claustrophobic. Additionally, though non invasive, MRIs are quite loud and distressing. I have had one myself and must admit I was a bit nervous. I can only imagine how much more nerve wracking it would be for someone with PTSD, and a child at that!

That is interesting regarding the eating disorder. I hope it is straightened out as that can only be helpful for Matt. I am relieved you are not as depressed now Bec. Very good, do take care.

hi Bec,
I feel the need to respond to your posts on here regarding your present situation. As a mother of two myself I cannot even begin to fathom what you are going through totally. I read in one of your earlier posts on this thread regarding how you feel as though you being on new meds and being your sons trigger makes you feel like a failure and a bad mum (dont think they are the exact words but I have a terrible memory). I just have to say that the fact that you are thinking about how good of a mum you are makes you a good Mum. You are trying your very best for your son and no one can expect more than that. You are seeking help for the both of you and that in itself would be very stressful, and kids are stressing at the best of times (IMO). I was crying as I read your post about not being to afford to take your son up more sweets as I again can only just begin to fathom how you feel about that. But please remember that that doesn't make you a bad mother either. I haven't even met you yet but I can tell already that you are a great Mum- the apparent respect that you and your son have for each other proves that. I agree with the others that you should do some things for yourself while he is away- not only will it help the time go by but it will make you feel a lot better by looking after yourself and doing things you enjoy. I hope all goes well for you both while he is in hospital, and that you keep us informed as to your progress. My thoughts are with you, Tammy