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Old 27-10-2007, 05:40 PM
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I'm a former Marine. I never saw combat but one man was killed and another wounded in a training accident. This has haunted me since 1986. It never bothered me until the last few years. A 40mm round from a M-203 went off inside the chamber in front of me and one guy was killed and the other was wounded. I changed positions before the firing and the guy in front was killed. Now, I just can't get it out of my mind. It's driving me crazy. Should I just put it aside or what? I now feel like I should have been the guy. I feel so much guilt. Why, after so many years, is this bothering me? I'm always mad, easily upset, and drinking more. I've attempted to see a therapist but they could not see me for 3-5 months. Therefore, maybe they don't see a problem so I didn't pursue seeing anybody. Well, maybe I'm just blowing off stream. I just don't know. I'm not a combat vet but often wish that I was killed in combat. I'm confused.
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welcome writer and I am glad your here with us sounds like a lot of survivor guilt, I hope you can feel comfortable here and know that there is lots of good advice to be had here.

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Hello and welcome, I think if you want to see a therapist you should pursue it. I know its a long time to wait but the wait itself can not reflect how serious they consider you or your problem. Its important you stand firm and try and get the help you need. In the meantime there's loads of stuff on here to start reading.

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Hi writer, welcome to the forum. What you feel is typical, is normal....
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Hi, I am a former marine. Hang in there devil dog. Don't let it get to you, I was a 0311 marine, but I volunteered to go to Washington D.C. when I was in bootcamp, and I became a honorguardsman instead. I was there was 9/11 happened, and I watched the pentagon burn, I was only twenty years old. I am married now, and have a beautiful daughter. And because of that, and living there, I came home a different, but better person. There's times devil dog that I wished I hadn't volunteered to D.C., and had stayed in the regular line units, and had seen action in the middle east. I know it sounds retarded, but there's nobody who cares about 9/11 anymore, and I feel alone, because there's probably not anyone within a hundred plus miles who could relate to my story without blank stares, etc. Don't worry, your not the only one in pain.... Semper Fi

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