Ah nevermind. Jim reads wrong again! ;-) Meant you are concerned he will hurt himself?

Again though Bella, you need to think of yourself at the moment. Don't carry the weight of the world on your shoulders.

Jim.

No Jim, that isn't what I meant. What I mean is that he feels like such a bastard for cheating that he considers self harm or worse.

I do not think the cheating was merely something silly. Far from it. I am crushed. And that is also why I am so confused that I still feel so much love for him.

I will do my best to look after myself, thanks Jim.

I hope you are all really enjoying the break and that you had a lovely Christmas. I particulaly hope Evie is having a good time and that you and Kathy are enjoying some rest.

[quote=Jim;53447]Ah nevermind. Jim reads wrong again! ;-) Meant you are concerned he will hurt himself?

Again though Bella, you need to think of yourself at the moment. Don't carry the weight of the world on your shoulders.
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Seems we cross posted. Yes, that's what I meant.

I will try to look after myslef. I am going to spend a coupld of days with my parents. Too hard here in our home.

They have a pool and outdoor jacuzzi, they will cook for me and I will probably get visits from others while there. So it will be a good sort of break.

I have not had the courage to let my best friends know yet, but know they will want to see me to comfort me when i finally tell them, so I am putting it off as I just can't deal with that yet. I am fed up with everyone bagging him out too. Sure, I am angry too, but it doens't make me feel better....

And by the way Jim, not only do I know know how to put myself first, I don't know how to get the weight of the world off my shoulders! I am terrible!