I HAD A VERY STRANGE EXPERIENCE THIS MORNING. I got my coffee and sat down to log onto the forum for my morning "fix" of reality. I was unable to find the forum. It was like it simply disappeared. Web Page-O-

I went into panic mode! I freaked out! This has me somewhat unnerved. Being unable to access this forum should not push me so close to the edge.

I am curious if anyone else has had this reaction to being denied the ability to contact the forum?

The explanation for lack of access is very simple---The web site was down! No biggy. But I certainly got upset. I guess when us "PTSDers" freak out we really freak out. I really went into panic mode. It is my reaction to this that has me unnerved.

Any one wish to comment?

I think it is perfectly normal to freak a little. Think about it, most of us (like me) cannot have a normal social life so we found this place and found we can interact with people still. This is the closest I can get to socializing and not become ill for days on end. My friends are here, my support is here, I feel I make a little difference here so if poof it was gone for awhile me being me... I would react strongly because well, I have PTSD and over reacting is what I do best ;) Changing up our routine can suck LOL. I don't normally just get annoyed or think oh well. My mind goes on auto pilot to the worst case scenario and my body and mind react horribly. Just how I am wired.

Veiled

I am so disappointed to discover that I am not the only weird person in the world! Alas! What ever shall I do? LOL Do you know if we have a button to turn off that auto pilot that has apparently become unhinged in someway?

I really did freak out A LOT. Actually surprised myself over the intense reaction I had, but you are very correct. Our social life is basically non existant and at least by going to the forum we know the world is still there and we don't have to "worry" bout getting sick. Speaking of getting sick. May I ask how your body reacts to socializing or is that to personal a question?

Anyway, glad to know that I'm not the only "freaky people" person

Not too personal. I get like I am now pretty much. I am avoiding calling my husband though I need to but I don't want to speak to anyone else there because I am a lil' stressed... They have to connect me to hubs so I am making my son call for me in a few minutes. My son said that makes no sense. I said if it did I would be classified as normal and we don't have that problem now do we :)

I get sick trying to socialize. Nausea, sometimes throw up, the "plumbing" acts up, I have the shakes, I disassociate, I get very quiet, jumpier than usual, dizzy, claustrophobic, jittery inside (not sure how to explain that sensation), and sometimes it will trigger a full blown panic attack. That is why I normally do not do holidays. It is a set date and so many expect you to "perform". When I feel up to going somewhere like in laws I prefer it to be my idea on a good day. I have not met a new person in years. Well, I met the vet... I have yet to meet most of my husband's family despite reunions and holiday gatherings. They say his wife is a myth. I just get so damn scared. And hubby being the patient saint he is says when ever you are ready. He will still ask if I feel like doing it, but won't pressure me.

Veiled

When my symptoms finally got to the stage where I was unable to control them and went from missing 6 days of work a year to 60 days I was the same way. You could set your watch by my intestinal track.

1 hour before time to ready for work, my stomach would begin to hurt, the sweating would start along with the dizzies and then the "pipes" would let loose. I still react this way some times. Especially when it involves going to someplace new or meeting with someone I have never met.

Last April Marlene and I met and I even had the symptoms over meeting her. We truly are a mess, aren't we?

My mother thinks I eat to much salad and that is why my "pipes" are always acting up! Bless her though. She has really tryed to learn all she can about this mess we deal with daily. We are blessed to have loved ones who care

LOL the sweats, I forgot that one! I get very clammy. Yeah, we are a mess, but at least not alone. I also know I am not the only one who can get the same way over the phone ringing. That whole on the spot thing there.

OMG Veiled------the phone. Mom has asked me often "Why don't You answer the phone when it rings?" How do you explain to someone that the phone freaks you out? It does sound somewhat weird ya know!

For a long time I NEVER answered the phone. I let the machine pick up and if it was mom she would say "hey it's me, pick up". Just the ring itself would unnerve me beyond words.

I know that everyone here knows what it feels like to FINALLY find someplace where all this weird stuff you do and feel makes sense, but this is such a relief to finally understand all the insane junk that goes on in our life

YO Anthony--------------------------THANKS for the form

Just wanted to let you know Herc, I have that phone issue too. I hate answering the phone or using it at all for that matter. I get really startled when it rings. When I lived alone I had the ringer turned off all the time, and used the answering machine to screen calls. Now that I live with my family, I rarely if ever answer the phone, they do all the answering. Honestly sometimes I wish phones didn't even exist!

I'm the same way with the phone. We have several phones in the house, since it's a large house, but only one ringer is on, and that's the one that belongs to the antique phone on which there's no way to turn the ringer off. Dang it. I jump whenever it rings. But I screen every time. I can't handle being "on call" anymore, haven't been able to for a year or so.

I didn't see it, though I know the feelings.