I don't know if I am posting this in the right area so please feel free to move this post to the right place. Maybe it should be a poll, maybe it should be in my diary.

I had a sudden revelation today. Since my trauma was uncivered I have found that music makes me upset. Doesn't seem to make much difference what the music is but some tunes are worse than others. All I can hear when I listen to music is sadnesss. It turns me into a quaking ball of mess. If its a sad song then it makes me sad. If its a happy song then it makes me sad that I can't feel happy and that I dont think I ever will be again. I love music and am having so many difficulties listening to it. I miss it so much.

Since I found out about my trauma (I had amnesia or blocked it out) I have had severe flash backs and from them I know that there was a radio on in the background. I can remember was that the music was on and that I was in a state of terror, scared and crying, full of doom.

I can remember that one of my favourite tunes of all time (Children by Robert Miles) was on at some point during the trauma and I remember thinking that I would never be able to listen to it again without being totally devastated. Even before I found out about my trauma this was the case. Now I know why.

I do still listen to music ocasionally but it just makes me fell full of self pity which is something I want to avoid. 10 out of 10 on the scale. Or is it something I should confront?

Only today (after 8 months of knowing about my trauma have I realised that this is maybe why music makes me sad. Or am i just an emotional wreck? I don't know. I wish i had the answers so that i could start to recover.

Does anyone else get this? Are you triggered by all music or just certain tunes?

Hi. I just want to say that you are not alone in this. Music triggers me something awful. I find that the only music I can listen to is oldies when my mom plays 'em in the car or something. Never do I listen to music on my own. This is a trigger I have overgeneralized to the point that anything can set me off. It is sad for me too as I totally loved music to the point that it was always in the background of my life. Now I avoid it if I can.

Hiya morgan
Thanks so much for your post. I'm sorry that it triggers you too but glad to know im not the only one. Living in hope that we can both enjoy music one day. Here if you want to talk about it. Take care.