Hi,
I recently found out that my little sister was ganged raped when she was 13 and one of the attackers (I don't know who they are) convinced her that I sent them after her. I talked to her for the first time in 3 years (she ran away from home when she was 15...bad behavior as a result of the assault, I'm sure) and I can tell she's ambivalent about believing I had nothing to do with it...she's been completely brainswashed.
Anyway, that's the backstory. I guess the reason I'm posting is because I keep reliving it for her. I only know the race of the men, how many there were and the general location of where it happened...nothing else....but I keep thinking about it....everytime I close my eyes I picture her and I keep trying to figure out HOW it happened...if she screamed....that kind of thing... and it's driving me crazy. Any sister would grieve, but having severe PTSD due to my own sexual abuse when I was five makes it worse, I'm sure. I'm angry for her....I feel responsible for not being able to help...and to make it worse, I'm starting to get panic attacks when I see men of the same race...I don't know how to stop it... If anyone has any advice, I'd be more than open to trying out whatever you suggest.....

Thanks for listening,
Yaya

Hiya and welcome
Sorry to hear about what both you are your sister have been through. I'm new too. Different things can work for the panic attacks. heres some that work for me
1) Breath in for 3 counts and out for 5 counts for a while. Then in for 4 and out for 6 for a while. Then in for 5 and out for 7 and so on
2) Try to force yourself to get up and do something like a hobby, cleaning anything that might take your mind off the attack
3) Try to say to yourself "This is only a panic attack, it hasnt hurt me before and it wont hurt me now" - sounds daft but it works for me
Good luck with that
Take care