Sounds painful.. hope you are feeling better.

Take gentle care of you, my thoughts, hopes and prayers are with you during this time. I hope all is well and the clarity has returned, if so I am so happy for you....T.

Thanks again, All of You!

My eye has recovered, can open it as if the injection had never occurred, and it feels well. There are no signs of infection, complication and provided I follow directions and introduce 4 antibiotic drops into it daily it would appear as if all has and is going well.

I'm trying to keep my hands away from it too, which is difficult sometimes as I'm finding I need to rub it, itch it, touch it sometimes and know I shouldn't without first stopping everything and/or getting up off my butt and getting some clean kleenex. (lol) Just dawned on me,.....I could carry some with me or locate a box near me.

My head-trip and emot. distress in relationship to previous trauma, has passed I suspect for the most part now; The first couple days were the hardest with that as well, now I'm nearly ok with it. One corner is still all red but it's not nearly as thick and is continually thinning out. And, it's psychol. impact is no longer intense to what it initially was.

On another note, and very simply put minus any bottled up, distressful and frustrated feelings ......Well, we had my mother over for dinner tonight as I didn't want her to feel forgotten/abandoned and I missed her, as well as, had something for her.

......Her lack of interest and any response or words whatsoever regarding my health, condition of my eye or even the procedure, both during last wks. phone convers. and then again tonights visit, quite honestly hurts. This and yrs. of her indiffernce hurts and would make me feel so lonely, rejected and bad, if I didn't now know any better. So as I know her well, I seek to understand and mostly accept this is the way it remains, but it all still hurts.

I was leary of having her over tonight bc it was her words that most impacted me during her participation in a previous DV trauma: (serious facial, eyes and a head injury) that left me with 3 of the 4 corners of my eyes bloodied for two months afterwards.

So I was leary to invite her over here while the wht. of my eye remains yet completely healed as I feared that would once again bring together and simultaneously certain realities, as well as, unmentioned yet understandable fears: 1. Her prescence, 2. her chronic gen. attitude of indifference toward me and a reminder of her previously embedded words to me while I was then being badly beaten- "You f'n deserve it and No, I won't make her stop." Also, 3. the color of my eye, And, 4. my recent observations with how much I've begun to look like my sister who violently assaulted me; 5. my temp. feelings of vulnerability.

......ahhhhh', leary to post this bc, it's my PAST trauma, unrelated to topic and yet very much related in my psyche.

What I have very much felt, resulting from all of your responses, and so especially appreciate, is ......It feels very, very good to be in connection with, and to somewhat know and have gotten to know some of you, and to care about people who also care about me. You've all made me cry some very welcomed tears and much needed release. And, all your well-wishes, prayer and reflection back to me has been such a gift toward healing, deeper pers. insights and nourishment. ,,, and I promise will in return be put to good works in each possible upcoming oppt. that presents itself.

Again, Thank you All so very much! ......

The condition of my eye following the injection is again well! No complications thus far. No reasons to believe there will be any now.

I'll keep you posted on any following significant follow-up and share whether or not there is evidence of decreased inflammation or increased greater vision. From my observ.'s there certainly appears to already have been some improvement in my ability to see with some clarity, brightness and greater detail. "Progress not Perfection"

Hope

Hope, I am pleased to hear you're recovering well. It's good news.

Take care and keep your fingers out of your eye! :)

tude

Oh wow I just read this... I've been sick myself so I didn't know. Anyways, I wish you all the best Hope, best wishes for full recovery of your eye!

I will pray for you and your family, I hope everything turns out well for you.
God bless you,Chrissy

Hi tude! I took your Good advice and kept my finger out of my eye.
(lol) (lol)

Evie, thank you for your well wishes for a full eye recovery. I like the use and thoughts of those three words together: "full eye recovery". It reminds me of some of my deepest yet sometimes buried beliefs, one being that anything is truly possible. In my life, some perhaps have judged me a fool for thinking so, but I really do believe in miracles; I just try and keep this secret bc I'm still too afraid if someone knew this, that they might just feel compelled to set me straight. I've had true miracles happen in my life and some which I've seen in the lives of another, and once one in which I heard about that miracle, which I happen to believe because it was based in realities and from a much trusted reliable source. ...........So, anyhow I'm reminded tonight, that I believe in miracles!

Again, thank you, Evie for your well wishes and for your words which helped tonight to open up a part of me that gets stifled and stuck, and sometimes too often again these days.

Chrissy, I thank you too, for your prayers for my family and I.

Return for my next appt. Friday and will find out more.


Hope

I hope everything works out well..take good care of yourself.

Thanks Pandora, and things appear to be working out well with my eyes.

Friday, my husband and I were well on our way to another research follow-up appt. and my stress levels had and were skyrocketing so high that he let me decide that we most definately had to turn around and come home. I was sick from too much stress and escalating.

Anyhow, over this weekend, I learned just how far the pharmacuetical companies will go to get their medicines researched and approved. We got a phone call regarding our need for me to immed. reschedule this missed appt., as there is only a 4 day window of oppt. for me to be again tested and examined. My husb. starts on his new job and promotion tommorrow, and so no way can he drive me Mon. or Tues. to any appt.'s. So the determined research doctor apparently had called the pharm. co. and arranged to have a limosine pick me up at my front door and drive be to and from this appt.

I'm still in shock thinking of this. Unfortunately, my mind is proned to think of possible horrors. Didn't entertain those frightening thoughts for long however, and simply will be ready on time. I hope I feel the same trust come Tues.

It all really strikes me humorous and have already since thought of just as many hysterically funny possibilities during this ride, many a mile away, and then back home. (LMAO)

BTW, my husb. has said, oh' the choose of word limosine, is probably, just like the limosine service car dealerships provide back home when you leave your vehicle with them, ......another words a van.

Only time will tell. Being knowledgeable to the lengths pharm. comp.'s will go, and too many a dollar spent all in order to campaign, advertise and get there new medicine on the market, now I'm thinking why not, ....perhaps it will be a limosine.

This whole limo thing is humorous to me!


Hope

Now that is one for the books. A limo from the people we support! Alright! Sit back and enjoy the ride. Definitely don't you need to pull through a McDonalds drive through just for laughs. Do something memorable on this journey to share with your family !

I'm very impressed at how you held up through all of this and reached out for our support! I am also taken aback by the kindness and support offered from so many. Isn't it great to finally have the care we all missed at some point in our life .

I'm so glad things are looking up for you. I also have difficulty with my Mother for many of the same reasons. Sometimes when I am going to see her I have to remind myself to have NO EXPECTATIONS of her responses because I am always hurt and ignored. She is very self centered and only focuses on her needs, noone around her. Her love is selfish and not true to my meaning of love.

I am praying for you and your family. I await to hear about the celebration you will plan when this is all over!