I try to stay in the middle somewhere, but I have pendulum swung to both extremes.
In the past, it was most often the the high anxiety, over-energized, states that I experienced and with that I tended toward hyper-hygiene. Shower 2-3 times a day. If I even tried on a shirt to wear to work, I had to wash it.
I could be obsessive about the house cleanliness, etc.
In recent years, it's gone more toward the depressive states where I can barely muster enough concern to even get to work, let alone care about appearance and such. Then, I can go a couple of weeks without showering, just do swipes with the toothbrush on my front teeth, never wash my face, etc etc. With this last "episode" it became obvious. Wrinkled clothes, not necessarily very clean, my hair a frizzy wreck....all self-care goes down the toilet as I try and bolster up my INNER self-care enough to pull myself up and out of the spin.
-Dylan |