Hi neverforget
Good for you, I am glad you are getting some help to get through it. Is it possible to get him to go with you to see a T, or to see a different one?
But I agree with Spirit, take care of yourself. You will love again, and you will be loved.

spiritofnow

I wish you all the best in your journey to healing!

It's so good you can feel that this love you received made it possible!
Just like you, it was my first real love. At the age of 28.

About the idea of sending him that post, it's obvious I would be waiting for some validation from him.
I sent him info about PTSD 2 months ago and got no answer (got an answer but he was not reacting about PTSD) and I felt disappointed and sad.

See, I'm still hoping my phone will ring and he'll tell me he's ready and we must be together!
Though I know very well it's not going to happen.


Cowgirl

Yes, I really hope I can learn from this.
With hindsight I realise it's good I had the strenght to leave him when things got wrong.
It was a hard decision to take, because for months our relationship was satisfying and he made me truly happy. But it wasn't the case the last weeks.

I'll take time to try my best to listen to myself and find out what my needs really are.

Murphy's Law

We live far away from each other now, and we're not in contact anymore.
I hope he'll go and see a T. I really do.
But right now I don't think he wants it...

Neverforget, while what is happening is hard and painful I hope you trust in the thought that everything happens for a reason and is part of a greater plan.

If it were not for heartache, we would not put so much weight on love and if it were not for tears, we would not feel the warmth of a smile.

You sound like a lovely person and my hope for you is that life is preparing you for something just as great if not better. That may be with your boyfriend, it may be with someone new.

Being somewhat older than you other young ladies I have had my experience or two..... you need to trust in life and that you deserve the best. The rest is just a matter of time . You just need to believe in you. Believe you deserve the best that someone has to offer and while you may love someone with all your heart, you deserve the same back by someone who is in a position to give it to you. I don't want to hurt your feelings but your boyfriend was not in that place nor is he right now. He must help himself, you can't invest in someone who doesn't invest in themselves.

Take care and here is to better tomorrows

I wanna thank you Nicolette.
What you wrote moves me so much...it warms my heart.
I'll come to read it again when I feel too sad, to help me remember I must trust in life and hope.

But for the stones in its bottom, a brook would have no song. I think that is a line to an old country song - or something like that - my memory fails me. But there's a truth to it.

If not for life's difficulties, challenges, and pain, I don't think we would realize how wonderful it is when life is truly good. We would take the good times for granted. I live in an area with hard winters. When the forest around me begins to blush with soft greens in many shades, my heart bounds with joy. If we'd not had winter, and the starkness of the bare limbs, and the snow, and the bitter winds, would I rejoice so at the signs that the world is being reborn? Probably not.

Life goes on. Good times await you. Trust that around the next bend on the road that is your life, something wondrous may happen. And since you have been through this, you will appreciate it all the more deeply and know not to take it for granted.

Hugs,

Cowgirl