How Do You Cry? - Page 2

TLight · #11 22-03-2008, 03:26 PM

I working in a nursery right now. I love the simplicity of dealing with the plants, learning their needs, clipping their dead parts. Pretty symbolic huh?

Scared about money,feel like I should be pursuing my career as an Ecologist, but started out in Consulting and it's SOOO about Greed and B*tching people and telling people what they can't do with their land and having to listen to them B*tch............I thought I got away from being a waittress because of that.

So the nursery is OK for now, until I hear from SSD. The fatigue is intense because I have Fibro and Chronic Fatigue...........but nature and plants save my soul. My first day at the nursery, I actually felt peace and contentment for the first time ever at a job.

Plants cry too........did you guys know that? When there's an infestation of fungus or insects, they send 'drops' of chemical messagers through their sap droppings and through their roots to 'warn' the other trees! REally trippy man!

Jet · #12 22-03-2008, 08:09 PM

I cry silently...always have and probably always will. Cried all day today and no one

And we are looking to get property in a year or so and I can't wait...must have room for a garden.

Cindy · #13 22-03-2008, 09:15 PM

T-light:

Sounds like the perfect job for you. You work independently, solo, and help the plants that you know so much about. I hope you can steer away from the public sales so you don't get any whiners. But you would be great at helping people like me choose the right plants for my yard knowing the right soils, lighting needs, and climates. Have you thought much about landscape design?

Cindy

linasmom · #14 22-03-2008, 10:34 PM

JustJane,

No worries, it isn't your fault!!! I think it's a really good poll.

Best,
Rachel

TLight · #15 23-03-2008, 01:54 AM

Yes, In fact I have a program for landscape archetects that i use to do my native plant restoration plans for mitigation required by the County, State, etc.

I'm going to a Working Women's Group from Meetup.com next Wednesday. Thought I'd bring that up there, garden design.
Thanks for the idea!

Cindy · #16 23-03-2008, 02:51 AM

t-light;

you could also hook up with local garden clubs as maybe a speaker or offer your services to look at people's gardens and give them pointers or advice of plant locations that aren't doing so well.

Cindy · #17 24-03-2008, 02:01 AM

Well, things are getting stirred up, This is good - really. I think I've been turned off for the past 8 months. I was in a bad situation where I was in a constant triggering environment 8 hours a day, M-F in my once safe place, my classroom. It was beyond a nightmare. I can't even come to terms with it yet. In December I even stayed home for 8 days. I couldn't even leave my house. I felt so bad I couldn't go in to protect my students but it was that or the hospital and leaving them with him unguarded for atleast another 6 weeks. I'm still looking for my feet to put them on the ground. He was removed from my classroom on January 30th. My hypervigilence has reduced but is not manageable yet let alone everything else that goes with it. Whew - what a life.

She Cat · #18 24-03-2008, 04:49 AM

I didn't vote, but will say this. When I allow myself to cry, it isn't a good thing. I usually can't stop and end up suicidal. I do let a few tears fall now and then, but catch myself quickly and stop. Otherwise it just gets out of hand and I end up a nut case.

Cecilia · #19 24-03-2008, 07:40 AM

I cry silently and hide behind a big smile. I've had many years of hiding feelings and actions.

Nicolette · #20 24-03-2008, 12:41 PM

Sometimes when I start to cry I try and stop myself as I'm scared that if I start I may never stop.