How Do You Cry? - Page 4

stephanie · #31 15-09-2008, 04:27 PM

I rarely cry. If I'm really angry, I'll cry. I cry to keep from becoming violent.

Gravastorm · #32 16-09-2008, 07:15 PM

I wear my emotions like I wear my skin. Some covered, for decency, but most are revealed. Tears will stream while I rant and rave. My face will be awash when witnessing emotional moments, be it on screen or on the street. I will ball up and sob for (what seems like) an eternity to purge. My eyes teem with audible joy, sorrow and anger. Sounds rather natural, yes?

Here's the thing that is kicking my ass.. In the past few months I will weep at the drop of a hat, literally, a hat falls off the hook in the hall and it rends a squall from my eyes at the utter futility of even trying to keep it in place. This crying is silent and is not natural for me.

dirtgirl42 · #33 27-10-2008, 09:30 AM

started crying last year, not able to stop w/out meds. crazy huh?

jps · #34 27-10-2008, 02:21 PM

I never cried. No one listened anyway... so I just stopped one day. And for most of the years of my life there were no tears. Of happiness, sadness... just... indifference to the world around me. I ached with emotion inside... but... couldn't see any point in showing it on the outside.

The only time the dam broke loose was during Christmas eve communion. Where I could feel accepted for me for a change... and be forgiven for whoever that was. But here's the worst part.... I didn't see the people up there asking for forgiveness who really should have been! Maybe that means they won't be.

TLight · #35 27-10-2008, 03:23 PM

I'm crying all the time now. In the car, at home alone, crying crying crying. Trying to attempt to get out and meet other people, but my attempts seem to be thwarted.
Drove to a square dance club tonight. No one showed up. I sat in the car for an hour. Stopped at a bar on the way home, hoping to just find someone to chat with and not get preyed upon. Didn't get either. Cried all the way home.

I'm so attractive, smart, 'nice,' ethical and all around a good person and I've been so completely alone for so long. I'm so lonely. It hurts and I cry.

wattle · #36 28-10-2008, 12:45 AM

I've got several sorts of crying the eyes welling up for any reason going, even no reason, thats silent crying. Then theres the very embaressing public crying if I get panicy, I hate it! My eyes turn into red demon eyes, my face goes bright red and I can't hide it even if I wanted to run away and hide I'm usually frozen to the spot I'm standing on. I've always been a crier, sad movies, my kids in need of stiches or dental work I'm a mess, even now they're grown up. Crying is the worst thing for me, I wish I didn't but I do. Just look at me side ways and I'm crying.

morgan · #37 28-10-2008, 01:01 AM

I used to cry constantly. Everything made me cry. Then all of a sudden it stopped. First because of Methamphetamines then after I got off of those I shortly thereafter got medicated. Now it's mostly only silent tears. Sometimes my mom makes me cry a little harder than that though.

shiraz · #38 28-10-2008, 03:18 AM

When I was 4 years old, I was in hospital for an operation. I cried silently into my pillow so that I wouldn't draw attention and when the nurse came round for ward check, I'd turn my pillow over so she couldn't see it was wet with tears. I still cry silently if others are around, but can really bawl it out when alone.

Recently also able to cry aloud with my partner, when he is comforting me, I am comforting him, we are comforting each other :)

Anonymoose · #39 28-10-2008, 02:23 PM

I usually can't cry when I feel that I need to. I cry involuntarily when it's embarrassing to do so. I don't know why. I hate to cry in front of people, especially strangers. I fear that they'll think badly of me or make fun of me. It's embarrassing to lose face that way. I hate losing control, yielding to tears.

cragger65 · #40 28-10-2008, 04:58 PM

That sounds pretty damn fine Shoshin, I am going to start my first garden ever next spring, am looking forward to it.