To all those that offered their opinions and statements. You know, in regards to dealing with the emotions that is enabling this anger; I'm trying. Went to deal with my mom and surprise, she was already gone. She lives about 3 hours away and was visiting my g'ma, so there was my opportunity. Probably would have gotten into a fight anyway. I was prepared for whatever.

Trying to be more recognizant of what people are really trying to do for me, thus in recognizing those efforts, trying to bring a little more positivity into my life.

Just tired of bullsh*t people. The little things just become so overwhelming sometimes. I went to the flea market the other day and someone just totally walked in front of me and I said, "Well that's f**kin rude!". Normally I would just say it in my head................ but it's getting harder for me to do that. Subconsciously "waiting" for someone to react to me? Don't know, but have way too big of a commitment to my son mostly, to be behaving like that! Won't do him any good with me locked up somewhere. Nor would it help my really good career. So......... in time.

But really, I just wanted to say "thank you".

Scorpio,

The little things are becoming so difficult because of the trauma within already. You looked at the PTSD cup already, which gave you a visual idea to what is happening. Great... now what? Now you need to start talking, you need to start getting the trauma out of you, which will then make you capable to handle the little things.

Anger is an issue to go into trauma therapy with, so you need to learn about the anger management components first, which are basically running into dealing with your trauma.

Lets get into the guts of it shall we, and see what light flicks for you. How do you feel at an emotional level about the following:

• My mom lost custody of me at 2 when they took me from the house
• I was locked in my room with a bowl of food and water so she could go out.
• Living with my dad was pure hell as he drank, beat, shot guns, used machedes, held axes, killed my pets, beat some more
• I got taken away at 11, for the courts to decide.
• He died at 39 from Cirhossis.
• My mom has only tried to be a parent for 3 years of my 35 years
• She was no angel neither in mental or physical means.
• Rejection anyone?

Lets start pulling apart what you feel to find some of the causes to your anger.

What is the most significant traumatic event to you from the above list?

Hello! I am going to respond later with great detail. I just haven't had the time, but wanted to acknowledge the time you took in preparing what you did for me. Thank you.