i feel angry at the world that always let me down when i needed them the most
everything is falling apart for me

whats happening to me?
anyone knows?

is this normal to go from extramly happy to extreamly angry like in one sec?

cielito,
it's important, no, it's very important that you find a way to be "in the world" the more you can. it's also for this reason that i told you to attend some course: building something inside you while you are between people, even if they don't know about your suffering and about what appened to you, helps you to have more "sense of the reality". more, it's important that you create some relations, even if they are not relations of real friendship.
sense of reality is the most important thing in mental health, don't forget it.
and your mind need human contact, too.
don't desperate and look for joy...
kisses

I cant hepl felling that im left out and forgotten
i dont have any friends at all left
and i have to have a person with me all the time am outside becaouse of my
attacks i have and i cant controll them at all
and the police arent werry understanding here at all and always think that im drunk or druged
so i have someone with me all the time when i leave the house
this is so humilyating that i have to have someone by my side
and it makes me feel less like a person
im tired and scared

I have friends but I still feel as though I'm alone.

Yeah the dreaded 'ALONE' feeling, I've been feeling it a lot lately too. I never was one to have many friends, even before my trauma. Now I have none, I have some family that are close to me and my hubby, but I still feel alone and misunderstood. Hang in there and take care of you.

Tessan

I am unable to leave my house most of the time so I understand your frustration with
needing to have someone with you when you go out. I also understand the fear.
The feeling of no control over your life is a frightening thing too

Alone, an awful feeling---I know it well----I found that I had caused my own isolation
I am still alone with no friends, but now, with therapy, I understand why. It does not hurt so much when you know why!

I remember when I was at my lowest level. It caused me to seek help and discover
the cause of my feelings.

Just the fact of knowing "What" was wrong, actually made me less anxious. I was able to put a name on what was wrong with me. That in itself was a healing.

While you have no asked for it, I am going to give you my opinion. Seek help. Talk to a professional. They can help and do! Once I opened up to my T> amazing things began to happen to me and my thinking and my life.

I am still a sufferer but knowledge is power and just knowing what my problem is has helped me.

hi Grama-herc

Thank you for the answer!
i have contact with the psyk ward in my town
But the nowlige of the ptsd isent wery good here i sweden
like non accuelly
That why i m writing here

here i am giving you a web address where you can find informations, telefone numbers, e-mails of good therapists in sweden.
www.emdr.se/
emdr is an innovative therapy i am doing too.
but, above all, these therapists are the only ones, in europe, who have studied ptsd and have esperience in it.
i have been looking for them for 12 years. now one of these therapists is helping me and i feel better.
keep strong and let me know, ok?