My Friends

I have new friends,
we are different.
We have different backgrounds,
different stories.

Each of us is struggling,
endlessly searching for our light in the darkness,
Never ending our fight.

Our destinies,
brought us together.
Each of us on our own journey...

Laughing together,
Growing together,
Laughing together,
Crying together.

Higher power brought us together,
Fate knowing exactley what we needed,
to begin flourishing together.

And to my friends,
I will be forever grateful,
Because of you ,
I will never fall back to where I was.

Thank You with all of my heart and soul,
I love you my unique friends.
May you find your paths blessed,
With the happiness you so deserve.

I will never forget you.

Where were you when …..
She slipped from under the play pen to run from fears unknown
She gathered her belongings to ramble far from home.
She fled in verbal silence, her heart beating outside her chest,
To escape the painful death of hearing another scream.
To run from the terrible nightmare of another day time dream.
To hide out in the cold until the limbs no longer felt,
The battered body of the child, was visible to none.
The mind no longer felt the pain, so that is how it seemed.
The struggle of the soul was... unable to be seen.
I needed you …

Lonely Sunset


Even sunset seems lonely tonight,
With an eerie glow of orange light.
Tired, it seems, as it hangs so low,
Unable, it’s beauty to bestow.

A dark sillouette of unleaved trees,
Their bare limbs raised in desperate pleas,
Seem to be begging for one last day
Before their life is taken away.

Where are the rosey pink and gold
That burst across sky in sunset bold?
Have they left earth for a better place
To express their fair beauty and grace?


cathy

As I climbed the hill I could not see,
That there was even a reason to be.
As I sat on the rocks contemplating my demise,
A flower looked me in the eye.
No, it did not speak aloud.
It simply showed that beauty exists,
A thought so foreign to my soul –
That the beauty of a simple weed,
Could hold me through this moment bleak.
And give me voice so that I could speak.
And tell myself that pain so deep,
Could be overcome by something so simple
So sweet.

Repeated Awakening
I finally grasped what he had said,
Embarrassed that it took so long.
Saddened that it would fade away.
And seem so new another day.

Fallen
When every one asks how are you?, you give them the OK!
when inside your heart is screaming, tell the truth
The pain gets no easier, Days go by the pain gets stronger,
How much can you handle I guess you'll find out.

What happens in the end, when you can't take any more,
do you pull back into your self, tho be a en there is no room,
I want to feel again, and not just pain
but pain, is all I know and many niignts, I wonder
how many more there will be, how long can I tell all i OK?

Maybe Someday

Maybe someday I can get up in the morning and feel good about myself
Maybe someday I won't need drugs to get to sleep
Maybe someday after I get out of bed I have had a full night sleep
Maybe someday after the full night sleep I can say I did not have a bad dream.
Maybe someday I can walk down the street and say hi to my neighbors and know that they don't think I am a mad baby killer
Maybe someday I can hold my head up and look everyone in the eye and feel good about it.
Maybe someday I can have friends
Maybe someday I can trust someone again
Maybe someday I can have a normal sex life
Maybe someday I won't have a look of death on my face and in my eyes
Maybe someday I won't scare everyone I look at
Maybe someday I won't have memories and ghosts
Maybe someday there will be no pain
Maybe someday I won't need the VA.
Maybe someday I won't have to sit in the corner of the room
Maybe someday I can just sit down and talk to someone
Maybe someday I can get rid of all my guns I sleep with
Maybe someday I can have a day that I don't think about Vietnam...
Maybe someday my life will be over and none of this will have happened...
Maybe someday nobody will ever know we were........

Vietnam Class of 69' 70'
New to group I am Mike
Hope you enjoy my thoughts

Down in the Cellar cold and gray, my true love threw my heart away. It lay there cold and motionless, cut clean out with just one twist.

As no one knows my heart is cold, I try to hide it but it gets old.

need to think up more....T.

Gregory

Little boy,
with eyes of blue.
Child of my heart,
I love you.

The bravest boy,
I've ever met.
I promise you,
I won't forget.

Beautiful soul,
Heavan's pure light.
Shining star,
on the darkest night.

Fly away baby,
it won't hurt anymore.
Spread your wings,
let your spirit soar.

so beautiful.