Sweet and silent
utterly alone
inside her head
contemplating
inner strifes end
deciding
elements unknown
to lead her from the pain

I don't want to ever need

to love

to chat

to care

to share

to be

I don't want to ever need.

I hate you jmp
you are a bitch don't you agree?
what do you want?
why do you need?
just go cut yourself and bleed.
and then the pain will go away
at least for some part of the day.

I know that only birds can fly
But sometimes people must also try
To spread there wings
and touch the sky
to be without fear
for just one moment

I Looked for a Rainbow

I looked for a rainbow...
But, alas, there was none.
Only dark clouds remained there,
Deserted by the sun.

Tears streamed down as raindrops
And ran into the ground,
Hiding there forever...
Great darkness does abound.

Sun cannot find the tears,
To chase them all away...
Never again to surface,
Hiding in dank, dark clay.

Heartbeats have faded,
Melting into a pool,
This burden gone forever...
Secrets no more to rule.

can you see, the pain in my eyes
the things I have seen, the things I have done
A way of life, I I've chosen to live, a piece of myself that I have to give.
can you see the pain in my eyes.

I have brought new life into this world
I have fought to save the life of a mother, sister, daughter, wife and friend
only to look up and see the pain in your eyes as you realize that she is gone.
can you see the pain in my eyes

I have worked feverishly to try to treat the teenager trapped in his car
the smell of booze thick in the air, and when he asks about his buddy
I have seen the pain in his eyes as he realizes that his actions have lost him his buddy,
can you see the pain in my eyes

I have hung below a helicopter to get to your crash, high in the mountains
and comforted you and kept you calm as we hung below the chopper bringing you out,
every second our lives hanging by a rope,
can you see the pain in my eyes

I have come to your house and seen you holding the lifeless body of your baby,
and together we cry, as there is nothing else I can do for you,
and we see the pain in each others eyes

I have spent an hour in a boat with my head under water searching for your brother, who dove off a cliff never to come up again,
and worked on him as we pulled him out of the water
and knowing that he was gone, there was nothing we can do
I have comforted you but you have seen the pain in my eyes

my eyes have seen pain, sorrow and strife.
my heart has felt sorrow, pain, and joy
my body has been beaten, bruised and broken
my soul has been hurt but also rejoiced
my mind has never forgotten you, your problem or the outcome
and that is my life, filled with happiness and pain.
God has chosen me for this life, and I know I will survive.

for Luke

Find me a cure
A light in the dark
Lost I am, alone
Come find me love,
don't leave me here
I'm sorry.
I can't control me
Find the off switch
Let me go.
I'm falling, flying
Leave me alone
Let me cling
I feel your warmth
Reassuring heat
Melts the ice inside
Don't blame me for this
I can't seem to stop
My own addiction
A love of pain.
My broken soul
Shattered into shards
Millions of glimmerings
I slice you deep
make you bleed
Inflict my pain upon you.
Forgive me love?
I don't want you to feel this
Bad enough I do.
Just want to hide it
You see through me
See the truth
Love, you see me.

Butterfly
Flutter,Flutter, Fly
Beautiful Butterfly.
Fly So Very High,
Into The Deep Blue Sky.
Glide Upon The Air,
Without A Single Care.
I Would Not Dare,
Fly Way Up There.
Why Must You Die,
Little Butterfly.
It Makes Me Cry,
Watching You Fall Form the Sky.
We Had So Much Time To Share,
But You Did Not Care.
For You Where Not There,
You Were Sitting On A Chair.
Far Away From Here,
Running From Your Fear.
You Must Understand,
Why I Now Take A Stand,
Kathryn Williams 94

Short Poem

Are those stalks of ice
or shards of glass
in that tumbler of water
you withhold from me
as I thirst?

(I'm not good at titles; this is from about 20 years ago.)

Goodbye Daddy

A year ago you went away to heaven where the angels play, I was not ready for you to leave , in fact there were so many who could not believe,
but you were meant to greater things, and oh how we can hear the angels sing,
I wish that you were her today, to see your granddaughter play
to see that we are all fine, well maybe that is crossing the line
you live in a place that has no pain, when you cry we feel the rain,
no sorrow no regrets, in the place that you now lay go in peace my daddy dear , for our lives please have no fear.