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19-09-2006, 01:30 PM
|  | | | Join Date: Aug 2006 Location: charles town, wv (usa)
Posts: 1,251
| |  this one's just a little "dark"
A Mother's Love
My mother's love I could not find;
The hurt, the pain, the words unkind.
The hatred then, I now must know,
As on this backward trek I go.
Thoughts of death swirling in my life;
These feelings from past trial and strife.
Will she require my life today,
For disappointments then to pay?
The peace I seek, is this the way?
I struggle so, LORD-hear me pray.
Why is the road that lies ahead
Foreshadowed with such fear and dread?
From this dark place will I revive?
And find I want to stay alive?
To live and laugh with love again,
To find the past is not the end?
Last edited by cookie; 19-09-2006 at 04:35 PM.
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19-09-2006, 03:43 PM
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Posts: 608
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Darkness overwhelms me
memories returning, unbidden, unwanted
a fractured recollection haunting
a facade of perfection.
I fight their return
barely surviving a casualrty
of my own hidden war.
Lines if blood pattern my skin
scars forming, a testament
of battles lost
Darkest desires taunt me
Release me, free my pulse
In one quick release, I strive
I fight not to go too deep.
Death awaits me there,
the darkest angel, the sweetest angel,
Beckons, begs for me to follow.
I refuse his advances, wanting yet to live
To survive this pain, to redefine my innocence
To face my tormentors,
to face my brothers, one last battle
To prove once more that family
is made of thicker things then blood. |
19-09-2006, 05:50 PM
|  | | | Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: U.S.A. Kansas
Posts: 3,493
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Boo, I found much delight in your rage. You drove it home for me. |
19-09-2006, 10:34 PM
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Posts: 9
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The poems I am reading here are very true to human emotion.I have some my'self and I will post soon.Mine are not very happy but if it will help someone to identify with what is going on in their minds ,it might help.
Here is one I wrote in my darkest moments.
SHADOW.
You son of a Bitch,
You are like a bad itch,
What will it be,
You or me,
I have seen the unseen,
I have not been so keen,
What does it mean, to be obscene and not be able to clean,
You have let a roar,
It cuts to the core,
But what will it be,
You will see,
My mind will set me free. |
20-09-2006, 12:12 AM
|  | | | Join Date: Aug 2006 Location: Colorado Mountains, US
Posts: 233
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Wow, we're really on a roll here! I love them ALL |
21-09-2006, 09:22 AM
| | | | Join Date: Aug 2006 Location: charles town, wv (usa)
Posts: 1,251
| | Recess
this has nothing to do with ptsd, but everything to do with my job!(teacher)
Recess
Hair flying
Shoes tying
One running
One crying!
Swing high
Oh, my!
Swing low
Don't cry!
Monkey bars
Toy cars
Boys from Jupiter
Girls from Mars.
Frisbees sailing
Puppies tailing
Skinned knees
One comes wailing!
Dry tears,
Calm fears
Give a hug
End jeers!
Children smiling,
Leaves a' piling.
Jump right in,
Single filing!
Boys chase,
Make a face.
Girls scream.
It's a race!
Time goes,
Tiredness shows.
Line up!
Whistle blows!
Here we go
In a row.
Single file,
Please walk slow! |
21-09-2006, 09:28 AM
| | | | Join Date: Aug 2006 Location: charles town, wv (usa)
Posts: 1,251
| | post-hog?
ok, i'm being a post-hog, this is my last one today, promise. it may seem this has nothing to do with ptsd, but it is a source of comfort for me.
Forever In Christ
When things of this world
Overwhelm my soul;
When I feel like my person
Is no longer whole;
My LORD is just waiting
My heart to embrace.
He is my "strong tower",
My safe hiding place.
His mercy surrounds me,
His grace does abound.
The comfort I seek now
With Him I have found.
When my heart is heavy,
To sin I am tied;
He is forgiving,
His arms open wide.
Forever I'll love Him.
Forever I'll praise.
Now and forever
I'll walk in His ways.
Last edited by cookie; 21-09-2006 at 03:24 PM.
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28-09-2006, 07:01 AM
|  | | | Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: Ohio...USA
Posts: 479
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Cycle
The bed is old
I drop in
from someplace off
Warm
I snuggle in
The bear is old
He holds me
I hold back
Neither
holds out
for tomorrow
The child is old
I find her
as she runs back
to really see
if bed and bear
are there
Relieved
I close the door
Wildfirewildone....Jan. 10th, 1989 |
28-09-2006, 07:09 AM
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Posts: 479
| | Another poem....
Soliloquy
The face
in the mirror
was a stranger
She had come looking
for me
But I had gone out
wildfirewildone......Sept. 16,1985 |
29-09-2006, 07:24 AM
| | | | Join Date: Aug 2006 Location: charles town, wv (usa)
Posts: 1,251
| | a poem when down to pick me up
He Will Shelter Me
When despair rises up around my soul
Must I succumb to the depths below?
Christ alone can rescue me from the flood,
Paying for my sin, with His shed blood.
When waves of sorrow are over my head,
And thoughts of the past fill me with dread,
As I look to Christ, I see where I stand.
I am so weak; it's all in His hands.
When the temptor tries to burden my soul,
If I allow him to take control,
He'll fill my heart with such sorrow and strife,
And make me desire to end my life.
Then Christ gently prods me to remember:
To Him my heart I have surrendered.
Because I am His, my soul can be free.
As now, in His love, He will shelter me.
Last edited by cookie; 29-09-2006 at 07:25 AM.
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