Because no one really has much if any experience or understanding with PTSD. The counselor the stupid (expletive) in the (expletive) court system are forcing me to see, he really doesn't know shit. Tells me a good part of my PTSD is my imagination. (expletive) my (expletive) imagination. When I was raped, was that my imagination? Hell no. What about when I was a little kid and my momma stuck a loaded shotgun barrel in my face? Imagination, again? I don't (expletive) think so.

So I come here, because when I talk about what I go through, I'm not speaking a foreign language. And these guys here at the forum don't try to tell me how I'm not trying to rehabilitate because I won't try EMDR or how I'm faking it because I won't try medications (even though the counselor that said that doesn't even have the credentials or licenses to do ANYTHING with meds. The level of expletives I have for that (naughty word) is beyond the capability of the server for this forum.

this forum reminds me that i am not alone.

I have been thinking a lot aboout some of the thiings going on here latley. I guess we all are working at our own self care pace.

I still feel like I need the forum. I also know that due to isolation....I have used the forum alot.

I want to get back to life but as a single Mom with an injury that keeps me home a lothis friends here (now that I finally have a home again) haha and with a son with autism, OCD, and tourettes...also with anxiety. He has his friends here every weekend. I have no help from his father....none and if ido get a day here or there....the three days it takes to get him back to being calm and not beleiving his fathers words "You don't need those meds" I am a nurse and the last thing I ever wanted to do was put him on meds...and I have finally accepted that, especially because it minimizes his ticks, helps him sleep and decreases his lack of impulse control.

How do I get back to life...start dating ( when that still makes me panic) I know now I am pretty in my own way but I just need to beleive it.

How does a person venture out into a scary world???? How do you learn to trust enough to venture out.....my son is 13 this year. I do have more freedom but how do I meet nice people. The last couple months I was threatened in more ways than one by a psycho landlord, had my best friend stab me in the back and had relatives steal from me.

How do I learn to trust again.....the last couple of months, although I feel stronger in some ways....I fear people more. I want better for me and my son........any suggestions.

Pand,


I have no clue as to how to find healthy friendships/relationships. I seem to attract all the wrong type, so I quit looking.

I do understand your frustrations.....You are young so keep looking...Don't quit yet, you may just find the right one. I wish you well.

I hope so......it just seems so hard right now. i want to trust...I am so fearful!

From my point of view Pandora and Wendy.... I don't think you have to go in full steam ahead with relationships/friendships and trust from the onset. Trust can be built/earned over time. Why not try dipping your toes in first.....Then, if it goes pear shaped, you haven't invested too much...and if it does work....you can learn to trust again!

How and where do you meet...nice, understanding men?

In places you would normally go doing the things you normally do..... you just have to get out and not try...it usually happens when you least expect it and aren't trying.... I met Anthony living next door and he'd been there for almost 6 months before I even met him....the reason we met was because of our boys being friends.

Don't go to bars and clubs if that is not where you normally go. Just go out and be you!!! If a friend invites you out - go. Go to the park or library or wherever you like being.

I go no where. I met the last man...over the internet, new him from highshool..or of him at leastt

Pandora, I have a single friend who complains about trying to meet men saying:

Everyone tells me to get out there - but no one gives me directions to where "out there" is.

She makes jokes that when she finally finds this mysterious 'out there' place it's going to filled with millions of men.