Well I felt sort of obligated to introduce myself and say hi, although I'm not quit sure what to put here. But I figured I'd give it a shot... especially as seeing how I was supposed to go to the zoo this morning. I was really looking forward to it, but then decided to hide in bed until almost noon again as the flashbacks have been so bad it's scary to leave the house.

So... I'm a 23 year old college student doing a double major with psychology and chemistry. I had been studying pre-veterinary medicine on top of that but not any more. The pre-vet and chem stuff came first. I was convinced I was going to be a vet, or at least do research in that field. Then I stumbled my way into a neuropsych class and fell in love with it. I had worked as a vet tech starting with volunteering when I was 12, became hired and paid at 16, was training third and fourth year vet graduate students when I was 19. Worked in the field up until I was 22. I was darn good at my job, I could do everything, The vet I worked for even let me perform several surgeries (we were a teaching hospital, so clients would sign a waiver for someone other than the vet to do the surgery, tho the vet was there to assist the full time, but normally it was just on my own animals or on animals that my coworkers brought in). I would have made a terrific vet, but the passion for my vet classes just wasn't there like it was in the psych classes.

My medical disorder list looks like the table of contents to an abnormal psych book... ADHD combined type, PTSD, Reading Disorder, Math Disorder, Anxiety, EDNOS, History of abuse, History of self harm... and I know I forgot nearly half.... It's a wonder I function at all sometimes. I'm applying for graduate school programs this fall. I really hope I get in someplace. I'm scared of leaving my current doctor though. I've had doctors look at my list of disorders and be like "you're too young to have all of that, especially the anxiety and PTSD. You just need to stop being a whiny little brat and learn to deal with things." Maybe they're right. But my current doctor understands. To be honest, I don't have the best luck with doctors. Once, like two years ago, I had to go to the ER for something, I forget what. I had my medical notes that were relevant with me, and it had all the drugs I'm allergic to. Mainly different types of antibiotics, and stuff like vicodin and some other pain killer... all in all I think there's 8 or 9. The doc looked at the list, said there was no way I was allergic to that many things, said I was making it up (yeah, umm... if I were making it up, why would I put vic on there, when most people want that drug? And why would anyone lie about being allergic to stuff like antibiotics?) So he gives me an injection of something on the list. I go in to anaphylactic shock. I refuse to see anyone by my normal doctor now. So I just hope when I go to grad school (if I even get in) I'll find a good doctor. I'm fairly confident I will, most professors I have talked to who have gone through PhD programs said the best insurance they've ever had they had while they were in grad school. That was good to hear.

Welcome to the forum Trapped....

My list of disorders looks like an abnormal psych table of context also. That's why I did so well in Abnormal Psych class.

Anyway, welcome to the forum!

I understand what you are saying "Trapped". It's amazing how cold and dismissive doctors can be. They must have gone to med school for the money, not for helping others. Where's the compassion and understanding? It wasn't until my husband got into the military that I discovered some Dr's actually do care about people and listen to the patient. There are good physicians out there though.