Hello,

I have no complaints , but I think it helps me to share with others.

My wife had dealt with a number of issues before we married as had I, and we were both very open about it.

Then we had our daughter and opened Pandora's box. Almost everything in our daughter's life brought forth repressed memories. I saw by beloved wife decline emotionally as she recalled her parents actions.

She fought it, but she couldn't control it. In hindsight she started on the path to healing, but it was like descending into Dante's Inferno.

At the same time perhaps because of the C-Section the fall out from her car accident hit from 12 years ago with a vengeance. After counsulting with specialists at two research hospitals we learned she had severe and extensive ligament damage deep in her lower back that went undiagnosed.

Also, the neurologist she saw after the accident did not recognize the neorological damage. To make along story short and using a little poetic license, she has a short circuited autonomic nervous system. Everything works, but not the way it should. She also has neurolgia (nerve pain without a physical cause).

Her PTSD worsened along with developing major depression and severe anxiety. We tried to find an in patient program that would help her, but our insurance coverage does not extend out of state. Her psychiatrist said there were no adequate facilities in-state.

We had already exhausted our resources trying to help her so we had no other options except heavy medication, continued therapy, and round the clock care.

Three years ago I stopped working full time. Last year I worked for seven months about 10% of the time. This year I had to stop working after Thanksgiving. We survive on public assistance.

Unfortunately, my severe major derpression reared it's ugly head in the midst of all this complicating things. I depend on medication since both my psychologist and psychiatrist said the stress in my life has to decrease significantly before they can help me come to terms with the past.

Amazingly our five year old daughter is the complete opposite. She's happy, energetic, outgoing, loves making friends with literally everyone, and empathetic without it effecting her adversely.

I consider myself blessed with a wonderful wife and daughter, but sometimes emotionally I get real tired.

Dear C, First off, I want to say how sorry I am all of this has happened to the both of you. One good thing is that it's now diagnosed and you are aware of what is going on. My husband and I didn't have that blessing, at least not until some ten years into our marriage. Now, thirtyfive years later, things are getting better. We both worked full time, and raised four children. It was so difficult that I can't even begin to express all the emotions and explain all the problems we had. So, I have a lot of sympathy for your dilemma.

Do persevere, encourage your wife to do so as well. The joy from raising your child should be cherished and as much interaction with the both you is crucial for her. Living toward a goal is important and that is being as healthy as you can be, not just for yourself but for all concerned. The struggle is monumental each and every moment of every day. I wish you well and your family.

Sincerely, map9

Thank you for your kind words map9.

Crucible