Checking Medical Records

Secret · #1 27-07-2008, 01:18 PM

I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, or at least I think I am, it's always a big argument between me myself and I . Recently I had my therapist go over my medical records from childhood and they seem to be consistent with someone who was sexually abused. I can go into more detail but I'm not trying to trigger anyone. Now, these records are medical, and no one knew at the time, so their official and unbiased. It just reaffirms what I thought I already knew, only this time....I really know it. It has really freaked me out, I'm feeling a bit stuck between now and the past and unable to deny it any longer. Has anyone else ever experienced anything like this? Does it bring back the flashbacks? (I am on risperdol so that shouldn't happen anyway, but still, i'm worried)

Thanks

brokenchild · #2 28-07-2008, 03:24 AM

I've had this happen many times about many different things I remember. There are things medical records that are consistent/indicative of sexual abuse and the physical abuse. Things in my children services file that are telling of some of the other abuse I remember.

Normally, I've just been numb and sort of in shock when learning about it. It's never really intensified flashbacks or anything like that.

cactus_jack · #3 28-07-2008, 03:51 PM

I remember when I was a kid I tried reporting it in my mid-teens, but kept being told I was "imagining" it held me back. I recall a few years back I met with a neighbor I grew up knowing, she was in her 90's and she told me how her and her husband reported the child abuse. But the sheriff's dept. did nothing. Go figure.

void · #4 29-07-2008, 02:19 PM

Secret, welcome and if it helps you to go into detail-----then do. Everyone on this site knows that what they read may trigger them so don't let that stop you. It can be a relief to say that which has never been said.