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Welcome to PTSD Forum. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is a life threatening, debilitating disorder that can break down a sufferer’s body through anxiety and stress. Further it poses a significant suicide risk resulting from the brains neurological imbalance and chemical depression. Sufferers often live in denial, thus this community is aimed at helping PTSD sufferers help themselves through others experiences, guidance and education. We are here for the sufferer, spouse and families surrounding PTSD. Spouses and family are too often forgotten in this equation, and often they receive all the worst that PTSD has to offer. If you're involved in any way with PTSD, get registered and help yourself now.

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Old 30-07-2008, 05:06 AM
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I wanted to finally introduce myself after lurking for almost a year now. I have been to scared to write. For some reason I have gained some courage this morning and here I am.

Who I am......... Okay, here is the short version..........I have been dealing with PTSD for over a year and a half now, all related to numerous rapes, beatings and a kidnapping I went through when I was using drugs and in prison,. No, I wasn't brought up with any abuse, in a bad neighborhood, or in a single parent home. I was raised with great parents, in Malibu, California and in great schools. The abuse I speak of happened near the end of my use. I have been sober over 14 years, and my life has changed dramatically! PTSD has robbed me of my lifeI had made for myself. I no longer work, or enjoy anything because I can't leave my house alone. I had to give up my home and move back in with my parents, just last June. I just stopped paying rent on my apartment in Santa Monica, CA. in December.. Which meant moving 500 miles away from my life.

The anxiety, panic, and fear I undergo on a daily basis have taken over my daily pleasures, sleep, and mind. It has turned everything inside out. I have been on numerous medications, see many therapist, and tried many holistic approaches all to no avail. The side effects from some of the medications have done everything from lose my hair to gain weight. I am off all of the medications since nothing seems to help. Although, most of the therapist say I can not even start to process some of the things I have been through till I have become more stabilized. That's where I am at the moment, stuck in the house most of the time. I do get out when I leave with my parents, it's just an anxiety ridden day~

I also recently got a service dog, that has been fantastic! The best thing is as soon as I start to have a nightmare she, Gracie, wakes me up! So sleep has become much better since I am not so afraid to go to sleep!!!

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Hi Bratgrrl and welcome to the forum. I'm glad you've decided to jump in and start participating.

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Welcome to the forum. I am glad to hear you have a saving "Grace". It would be wonderful for you to be able to rest without the nightmares. The healing process will probably take a long time, but tackle things as you can. Soon the memories will be just that - memories. While they will still be awful, they won't rule your life.
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Welcome!!!!! please tell us more of your story, you won't be judge here.
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Welcome to the forum. I am new here too. I have learnt much in just a few days.
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Thank you all for being so welcoming!!

As for writing more of my story. I haven't even talked about it fully in therapy. I get panicky just writing this. I hope that isn't a must for staying???
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Woe that's cool that you have a service dog! I'm guessing that it was trained to wake you? does it do any thing else to help with you symptoms? since it is a service dog can you take it where other dogs can't go? I wish i could get one of those vests for my dog so I could take him into stores and stuff. that would be cool


Oh yeah i almost forgot...Welcome
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Welcome to the forum Bratgrrl :) My boyfriend has a therapy dog. It is supposed to help him with his PTSD.
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